[*Bobbie*]

Well I had my apt today. My doctor wanted to see me in the beginging of my cycle. Well... they never told me but they decided it was time for a yearly exam... pap and all..... GRRRR I wish I would have known ahead of time. I thought I was just going in for a consult. I just hate having that done and would have liked to be mentally prepared!

Dave is being an ##### and has not gone back for a repeat semen analysis so my doctor pretty much didn't offer to do much of anything until that is done. I am soooo frustrated with Dave right now. I am about to tell him I am done with TTC. There is so little he has to do....and he can't even manage that. Plus.... he refuses to help me pay any of my DR bills. (He pays all the *house* bills) Now I have to go back again next month at the begining of my cycle and will have another DR bill. I just want to scream.

Anyways.... my doctor said this last AF was probably as bad as it was because of the last m/c. He said the tissue that I was seeing was probably from the m/c. That just made me even more upset.

I am having a rough month. I am still pretty depressed.

He is starting to test for PCOS and also the last test for a clotting disorder.

So on to a new cycle. My heart just isn't in it right now though. Maybe in a couple days I will be feeling better about it all, but right now I just feel like crying.

[Frangipani]

oh sweetie, I'm sorry you had such a rough go of it. I didn't even think of your m/c when you were talking about your period being so bad. Mine was really horrible the 2 months after my m/c-as bad almost as the m/c it seemed.

I wonder why Dave is being so odd about this. Do you think there is some other reason? Maybe he's afraid of you having another m/c? I know my DH and I have had that problem. He's so worried about something bad happening that he sometimes gets scared.

I don't know...I'm just sorry you're having a bad day

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

[..Jessica..]

Bobbie, I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time right now!!!

Why is Dave being such a butthead???

I hope you're able to get some answers soon, so you'll be holding your little miracle really soon!!!

[keekopeeko]

im really sorry... i hate having a pap jumped on me too..

and id really get on dave about not helping you out with the simple little thing he has to get done.. seriously, how hard is that!

(((HUGS))) heres to hoping you feel more cheerful in a couple days!

~Em

[Lv2Mommy]

Ugh - unexpected PAPs stink! Sorry DH isn't being very cooperative right now - they can be so irritating sometimes. I hope things start falling into place & you get some answers that will help soon.

[greenchild]

that sucks about your appt and Dave's non-cooperation!!! I don't know if this will help or not, bc my DH was willing, although def. not thrilled, to do the S/A. In order to make it more "fun" for him (he was so negative about it, that the process was so cold and clinical) I suggested some things and he actually took me up on one offer! So I ummm . . . made something for him to watch instead of the porn they usually have in those rooms. Let's just say he is more than willing to cooperate now! (not that he has to do it again since we still have the 3 frozen embies left.)

Hope you get some answers soon!!!

[luvmygirls]

I'm sorry you're having such a crappy time! I hope things get better and DH steps up!

[*Judy*]

I'm sorry Bobbie!
Hopefully this will be a reality check for him (having to put it off another month) and he will get his butt in gear. I am sure it is hard for guys, but come on...we go through so much more. I hope it all works out and you get your BFP soon. Love you Girl!!!

[dee68]

Bobbie,
I have been thinking about you all day & missed you in chat last night. I am so sorry you are going through such a rough time with EVERYTHING right now ..I truly am !!!
Maybe a "mental break" is what you need from all of this TTC stuff...kwim?
you know I am here for you and always hoping for the best !

love ya !

~big hugs~
Dee

[Melanie0507]

Bobbie. So sorry you had a rough doctor's appt and sorry dh is being such a pain. I hope you can convince him otherwise soon, as I would like to see you well on your way to a beautiful, sticky BFP!

[*Bobbie*]

Thanks girls! I am feeling a little better at the moment. But the jerk (LOL) didn't even ask me how my apt went! He did text me this afternoon and say he made a SA apt for the 25th. He just never asked what happened at the doctors. I guess it hurts more than anything. I feel like I am in this alone. Oh well....


Anyways... I actually slept through chat last night I guess my body needed sleep pretty bad because normal bed time for me is 2-3:00am.

I promise to be back to my normal POAS self very soon

Love to all!

[jademyst13]

I'm sorry you are having a rough time. At least he did finally make an appt that's a start.

[Danica]

Oh Bobbie I am sorry things have been so rough lately. It does suck when you feel like you are all alone. Travis couldn't take time off work for my last u/s. I mean, if I would have made him he would have but I didn't want to make him. I think maybe sometimes it is overwhelming for them but they have no idea the emotional roller coaster we are on. And we have to deal with the HORMONES! Sorry to rant on your post. I guess I just want to give you a HUG and tell you we are here for you.

[Shaustin]

Just wanted to offer you some BUG HUGS Bobbie!! I'm so sorry you had a PAP today, and that your appointment was less than expected. I hope that Dave pulls it together and realizes that his contribution is minimal compared to everything you have to go through!! Hang in there, we all get in a funk every now and then, and I think its perfectly okay!! We still love ya!!