RANT RANT RANT

LOU05 · #1 January 23rd, 2008, 12:16 PM

I wished i could stop reading the july due club
I wished i still had heartburn
I wished i still had morning sickness
I wished my boobs would stop hurting when my baby is gone
I wished i knew when i will ovulate this month maybe i won't even get to ovulate
I wished i could say with confidence that I will get pg again
I wished i could crave some weird food
I wished i could put things in reverse and not have lost my baby 9 days ago
I just wished people would stop complaining about being pg when i have no choice

Sorry if this affends anyone but everywhere i go women are complaining about how horrible they feel being pg, let me tell them they are feeling a hell of alot better then us with our empty arms and broken hearts and lost dreams I just wished they would shut up!

*Bobbie* · #2 January 23rd, 2008, 12:33 PM

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Have you checked out the Pregnancy Loss board? I know it was a life saver for me when I was going through my loss. The ladies there just have a way of making it all seem okay.

I am sorry you are going through this. I am having one of those days myself. I spent the morning crying in the shower

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raven320 · #3 January 23rd, 2008, 12:41 PM

Many, many (all?) of us here (and on the PL board) have days like yours. I never thought I'd pray to be hunched over a toilet, puking my guts out, and thanking God for the opportunity.

I say that prayer nearly every day.

We're here for you. All of us here were handed tickets for the misery bus you're currently riding, and let's face it, the ride sucks. The road's in terrible shape, the floors are sticky, the bucket of bolts reeks of diesel exhaust, and the landscape is bleak. The good news is, eventually, the bus will get to your stop and you'll get off.

I hope your stop's coming up soon.

jademyst13 · #4 January 23rd, 2008, 12:58 PM

Yes we all understand and I believe we all have our days where it's just too much.

Raven: I love you analogy, it's very fitting. I will say that there is good company on the bus (even though I wish none of us had to get on).

acolledge2 · #5 January 23rd, 2008, 02:05 PM

AMEN SISTER!!!!

I wish that I could stop the tears for just a day/an hour
I wish that I could go back in time and say good bye to the babies without doctors,nurses surrounding me
I wish that I could hear them cry just one time, see their faces, smell their hair, whisper their names
I WISH THAT SOMEONE COULD TELL ME WHEN THE PAIN WILL END

Brittanie · #6 January 23rd, 2008, 02:11 PM

I remember having days like yours, even though I lost Cora at the END of my pregnancy, but I guess it still fits.

I wished for sleepless nights and a screaming baby.

I promised myself that I WOULDN'T complain about being pregnant when I got pregnant again, and that I would enjoy every moment.

Guess what? I complained. A LOT. I think complaining is the way you survive being pregnant. I really hope that you get the chance to be that miserable.

But I understand why it bothers you. It bothered me. But now I have more patience with those complaining pregnant women, because I've been on both sides.

I'm sorry that you have to be here. I'm sorry that the innocence and joy was taken from you. I'm sorry.

Solace · #7 January 23rd, 2008, 03:18 PM

I agree. Even the trying to conceive after loss type of boards are still filled with people who are finding out their PG. Sometimes it's very bittersweet indeed.

I'm sorry you're so down... I'm kinda there with you.

*wane smile*

Keep your chin up, we gotta stick together. And when the time does come we'll all be just as heartfelt.

..Jessica.. · #8 January 23rd, 2008, 04:02 PM

Yep! I know allllll of those feelings!!!

The Pregnancy Loss board helped me a lot, and is still helping me through my loss. If you haven't popped in there, I also suggest you do head over there.

I'm sorry you're going through this!!! I'm sorry we all had to go through this!!!

LOU05 · #9 January 23rd, 2008, 04:48 PM

Thanks everyone
I have been over to the pg loss board and its great but iwant to get trying straight took so long last time.

I wished i did'nt feel so down but i do.
I am so ready to get of this bus the driver sucks and won't pull up

Baby Dust in truck loads to everyone

*Judy* · #10 January 23rd, 2008, 05:02 PM

Awww I am sorry Lou. We all go through those days, don't feel alone.

Melanie0507 · #11 January 23rd, 2008, 05:09 PM

Trust me...I have been there, and some days still am there, but I promise you, it really does get better. I have finally (after 2 months!!!) gotten to the point where I don't HAVE to read the June DDC postings every day. Yes, I still go there to check up, but not everyday. I am finally at the point that I feel hopeful about getting pregnant again. I am hopeful about the future and know that it will happen again and this time it will be a sticky bean!

I just want you to know that it is probably the hardest thing I have been through, but there really is a light at the end of the tunnel (or to go with the other analogy, the bus driver will eventually stop and let you off!!

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Danica · #12 January 23rd, 2008, 05:33 PM

I know exactly how you feel. I wish for so much right now. I am trying to not think about it too much though. Just trying to keep positive and reassure myself that it will happen one day.

victorialv · #13 January 24th, 2008, 12:11 AM

I am sorry sweetie, we know how hard it is....I hope that your days start getting better really soon!

greenchild · #14 January 24th, 2008, 06:20 AM

i totally understand! With the 2nd pg I had symptoms for quite awhile after the surgery, all due to the leftover hormones I suppose. That part really sucks!!!!!

and I'm going thru it right now, too. I still haven't m/c'd this baby and some symptoms have lessened and some are more pronounced. I tell myself when I start to complain about any symptoms that i will be happy to feel this way if only I get to stay pg!

I go in for another blood draw today.

LOU05 · #15 January 24th, 2008, 12:01 PM

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i totally understand! With the 2nd pg I had symptoms for quite awhile after the surgery, all due to the leftover hormones I suppose. That part really sucks!!!!!

and I'm going thru it right now, too. I still haven't m/c'd this baby and some symptoms have lessened and some are more pronounced. I tell myself when I start to complain about any symptoms that i will be happy to feel this way if only I get to stay pg!

I go in for another blood draw today.[/b]

Good luck Greenchild i have followed your story and feel so sad for you. Ican only hope thing get better for you this year and that you will finally get a baby to take home with you.