[babyblue]

Well, yesterday and today I've been having cramps. Today is CD27 (usually run 30-31 days but who knows since this is my first cycle since M/C) and I just don't know what is going on. I thought for sure I was preggo b/c since last Wednesday my boobs have been bigger. They never did that before AF (before M/c). And I haven't spotted at all- which I usually spot 3-4 days before AF comes. But now I'm thinking that my body is continuing its wackiness by giving me symptoms before AF that I didn't used to have. I took a FRER yesterday and it was negative. I really don't think I am pregnant now, but I have no idea when I ov'd or if I did at all. I'm definitely emotional- but that could be PMS or pregnancy.

I hate taking tests and getting a negative. I think I am ok with not being pregnant the first month. I don't want to sound like a brat, but this will be the first time I didn't get a BFP the first month we tried.. so that hurts my confidence a little.

The one good thing out of it is that if AF comes in the next few days, at least my cycle will be back around it's normal length. And then I will definitely be pulling out the OPKs (I got my new batch of 15 in the mail the other day) in a couple of weeks!

[Danica]

HUGS. The wait sucks. I am confused though... Didn't you m/c after me? Are you counting from the day you started bleeding or the day you m/c? Actually if I recall this all happened in one day, right? Sorry if it hurts to talk about. I am just wondering if maybe your dates are off... I hope that you are pregnant though. You know that with Skyla's pregnancy I thought I was, then I was sure that I wasn't pregnant, then I was surprised with at BFP

[babyblue]

My D & C was November 28, but I didn’t get my first period until January 9th., so I’m still on my first cycle. As far as ovulation, I have no clue though b/c I don’t chart and didn’t use OPKs- so I don’t know how many DPO I am or if I even ovulated at all.. I don’t think I ovulated before my first cycle.

I really wish something would happen, one way or the other. I hate waiting!

That would be great if mine swayed back and I got a BFP!!!

[Danica]

Oh yeah, my mistake. I know who I got you confused with. Duh. My brain is elsewhere.

I really hope that you get a pleasent surprise when you finally test and AF stays away!

[babyblue]

My brain is elsewhere too! I swear I have pregnancy brain even when I'm not pregnant!

Thanks. I'm going to try to hold off until Friday to test again. I'm thinking AF will show by then anyway.

[..Jessica..]

The roller coaster of TTC absolutely SUCKS!

I hope you get a real soon, Amber!!!

[Mommy2Makenna]

Good luck, Amber. Even if this isn't your month, I'm sure it won't be long till you are holding that BFP. Keep hope, remember... it ain't over till the witch shows up. (I know -- everyone says that).

[babyblue]

Thanks! I know it isn't over yet.. I just wish my body would make up its mind!

but I swear I'm having so many symptoms that I had last time. It's just the really bad cramps that are throwing me off. I dunno... I've come to the realization that my days of knowing all my symptoms and reading my body like a book are gone- at least for a while. I hate that though b/c that was the one thing I could count on every month!

[Melanie0507]

Amber--I really hope that this is your month, but if not...I hope we both get our BFPs next month

Good luck Amber, KUP!! I'm holding out hope for you