[greenchild]

So, since all that has happened, I decided I will NOT be returning to my OB, mainly bc of all the misdiagnoses I've gotten there (Mayo health system) every time he is gone, and especially since this last one was pretty serious. For the 2nd pg I went to Fairview Ridges clinic (Fairview health system) and I didn't like the OB's I met in their regular clinic. They have a clinic specifically for OBGYN that is highly recommended, but I never got that far as pg #2 didn't get far.

So this time I will try out THAT clinic http://www.southdaleobgyn.com/ seeing as #1 either I am pg with a healthy baby, or #2 I have not m/c'd yet so might need medical help to end a non-viable pregnancy. 10 out of their 12 OB's are high risk OB's so I'd be in good hands either way I think. The drive sucks, but oh well.

I can no longer even try to deny that I am getting bigger. I look like I am 12w along. My uterus has moved up and out of the pelvic area, making for a "hard" area below the navel, normal for this time frame. My boobs still hurt, that hasn't changed any except they are still slowly growing! I could have sworn I felt a flutter a few days ago (it definitely wasn't gas, and felt like it was right under the abdominal muscle in that "hard" area), but drs will tell you that it's too early for that. A friend of mine began feeling her flutters super early (her only pg) so I guess it's not totally out of the question.

BUT, with the betas (slowly) going down (which starts happening anyway at 9 - 12 weeks) and not much seen on the u/s . . . god I hope this isn't what's called a "missed miscarriage" where the body just keeps going as if nothing was wrong. That is a huge fear for me right now since my body is giving NO signs of miscarriage. But my uterus should be healed enough by now that if I need a D&C it shouldn't be a problem to do that procedure.

now I just have to make that appointment . . .

[..Jessica..]

Anne,

I'm glad you're seeking other medical help with this pregnancy. I really, really hope that you're still pregnant, and the baby is growing right on track! I hope you get some good news when you go visit this new OB!

[babyblue]

I think that is a great plan. I know the drive will stink, but at least you know you should be in good hands.

I just can’t believe you are still going thru all of this. I had a missed miscarriage and we found it at 11 weeks, and it was awful b/c I was still experiencing all the pregnancy signs and gaining weight although I had lost the baby probably weeks before.

Make that appointment so you can get some answers. Those flutters may not just be your imagination. There is still hope!

[greenchild]

Originally we wanted to wait and m'c naturally, and i was okay with knowing it could be a long wait. I am still okay with waiting to m/c, but things just seem to be progressing in the opposite direction instead!
If there's not a healthy baby in there this is just SO SO SO not fair!!!

[Mommy2Makenna]

Good luck with your new medical professionals. Hopefully they can get you some much needed answers. I'm still praying that your bean is growing inside you. Hang in there, girl!

[Danica]

Yay for picking a new clinic. I would too after your experience! I hope that you have just a shy baby waiting to make an appearance. I know you mentioned you have a tilted uterus. I am sure you also read that your hcg can drop if you loose a twin, which you did so I don't think that it is wrong at all to hold on to hope. It's such a tough situation to be in. Maybe they can give you another u/s. Have they checked your bloodwork again?

[Shaustin]

I'm glad you have found a new place to go, hopefully you will like it there. I, too, had a missed m/c with my first loss, it was so unfair. I really hope that's not what you are experiencing!!

Hang in there!! You are so strong!

[valentinemommy]

Wow..I could tell by your siggy that you'd been through a lot, but I had no idea how much. I really still don't know half of it, and your post still made me cry. How terribly unfair. I don't know your diagnosis or why your Dr. said you were going to miscarry, but sure sounds like thier is still hope to me. I felt flutters at 13-14wks with my son..and no Dr. will tell me different, lol I really hope that you get some good news, so that you can either begin the healing process or start enjoying your pregnancy. Good luck girl. I will pray for you.

[Madison.N.Hailey'sMom]

Awww I'm so sorry that you are still going through all this. Glad to hear that you are looking into a new clinic. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed that this pg turns out good still.

[*Melissa*]

I also experienced a missed miscarraige... I really trully hope that is NOT what is happening to you. There is nothing worst than believing everything is fine with your baby, because of everything your body is telling you- only to have it all ripped away within seconds... It's so wrong, and unfair.
You really need to get someone experienced to check things out for you, and hopefully tell you that everything is OK!! Take care hun!
<>< Melissa

[jademyst13]

I'm glad you have decided on a new practice. I certainly hope your baby is in there growing like crazy!

When are you going to make an appointment?

[Melanie0507]

I really hope that you get to go to that new office for wonderful OB appointments! I am praying that this baby is going to make a surprise appearance at your first visit!

[greenchild]

Yay for picking a new clinic. I would too after your experience! I hope that you have just a shy baby waiting to make an appearance. I know you mentioned you have a tilted uterus. I am sure you also read that your hcg can drop if you loose a twin, which you did so I don't think that it is wrong at all to hold on to hope. It's such a tough situation to be in. Maybe they can give you another u/s. Have they checked your bloodwork again?

[/b]

me too!!! I just think I might have had a tilted uterus, just based on a diagram I saw of how a tilted uterus sits and how my insides were feeling (felt like something was pushing back on my TMI rectal area, that was actually kind of painful for several weeks until now where my uterus has moved up and I feel much better). that, and how on earth do they completely miss a large healthy fetus with a strong heartbeat??? It makes sense for it to be tilted but really I have no idea, the OB's that worked on me never made mention of it. The were not interested in doing more bloodwork after it started slowly dropping, even though my OB said he wanted to see me each week until they dropped to zero. I don't know why he changed his mind! Part of the reason I don't want to go back there. How much can I trust the betas after a 50% blood loss, loss of a healthy fetus, and a transfusion? I don't think I can trust the #'s.

Wow..I could tell by your siggy that you'd been through a lot, but I had no idea how much. I really still don't know half of it, and your post still made me cry. How terribly unfair. I don't know your diagnosis or why your Dr. said you were going to miscarry, but sure sounds like thier is still hope to me. I felt flutters at 13-14wks with my son..and no Dr. will tell me different, lol I really hope that you get some good news, so that you can either begin the healing process or start enjoying your pregnancy. Good luck girl. I will pray for you.[/b]

It was kind of a long story but I'll try to condense it. We did IVF after I lost both my tubes and transferred 2 embryos on Nov 28th. On Dec 28th I had my first u/s where they saw ONE gestational sac with a tiny yolk sac (this one) and what appeared to be a collapsed gestational sac, so we were told we have ONE baby, and it was behind about a week, but that was okay for the time frame at 6w5d. 2 days later I was in the ER with shoulder pain and it turned out my uterus had ruptured bc ANOTHER baby (sadly, the healthy one) had implanted in the tiny opening in my uterus to where my right tube would be if I still had one and it ruptured out of my uterus, hence the 50% blood loss. I think it ruptured the morning after the u/s, but I thought the pain I was having was constipation bc that's what it felt like. So they took my healthy baby away and I had a 2 night stay in the hospital and had to have a transfusion. They told me that the other baby would not survive, and that they didn't know what that other "collapsed sac" was but that it wasn't a sac. I had to go back 8 days later for a followup u/s where they said the sac was collapsing and everything looked like it was getting smaller, and that I should m/c in 1 - 2 weeks. I went back for another u/s 9 days later and everything was bigger, but it wasn't baby-shaped and they didn't see a heartbeat. They didn't even measure anything. Said again I should m/c in 1 - 2 weeks. It's been 3 weeks (on Thursday) since that u/s.

Now, if I truly did have a tilted uterus at the time, baby could have just been laying "wrong" for them to see anything. Or it could just not be developing and I could be having a "missed m/c", which would totally suck. So I am really, really hoping what I felt was a flutter!!!

I am kind of dragging my feet to make the appt, I know I need to do it, but I am really scared to for what the outcome could be.

[MaMaTuTu]

I'm glad you've found a new place! And I hope that you like them a lot! Good luck with your appointment(when you make it). And I hope you get to bring us beautiful ultrasound pics of your little bean!