[mamalovesdaddyxo]

I dont write much, but I do reply and read.
I guess todays my time to vent?
I had a long talk with DF and he has come to the conclusion that we should wait until I graduate Keiser to TTC again.
UGH!
I understand where he is coming from..But honestly, I miss it.
We lost the baby almost a year ago and every day it weighs in on me more and more.
Im so emotional. And I hate it.
Nursing school is going to take me "only 2 years" to complete according to him.
ONLY 2?
Its hasnt even been one since the loss, and I still cry.
I dont want to want anymore.
I dont want to cry anymore..
I dont want to think about it anymore.
Am I a bad person?
Sometimes I feel like its MY fault.
And all of this conversation came AFTER we went to Babies'R'Us this weekend and browsed the books and all the cute things? AND IT WAS HIS IDEA TO GO!! Go figure?
He couldnt tell me before?
Everytime he sees a child he says "I cant wait."
YET HES TELLING ME TOO?
Yes, I understand that the right decision is to finish college and THEN have a baby.
But how do I fiil that void until then?
It hurts..
I dont want to hurt no more...

-Katelyn

[Danica]

I am sorry dh wants to wait. 2 years seems like forever I'm sure. Are you guys using protection or pull and pray? It sounds like he really wants a child too so maybe you and he can come find a middle ground like a year instead of two..? HUGS

[babybluegirl]

i agree with Danica maybe you guys can compromise

[*Judy*]

Oh I am so sorry you are going through this. I don't have any advice just want you to know that we are here for you. Hopefully you can convince him to change his mind. Did you flat out tell him 2 years was unaccpetable to you?

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I think it's perfectly normal to feel the way you do. I agree with the other ladies, maybe you can come to a compromise. Good luck to you. We're here if you need to vent, anythime.

[Lv2Mommy]

I don't really have anything new to say - Maybe he'll go for waiting a year to TTC and then by the time you have a baby you'll probably either be done, or close to it. Of course, I know that when you want a baby, even waiting a year seems like a lifetime! I hope you guys can work things our where you'll both be happy.

[mamalovesdaddyxo]

We're talking more about it.
Right now he is in Orlnado on a business trip so there isnt room for baby talk, you know?
He really wants one too.
He's been.
But he wants my education to come first.
Last time we spoke about it he hinted at maybe a year.
I think we we could do it.
Hell...i KNOW we could do it.

What gets me the most is that he REALLY wants one and it bugs him to have to wait.
Yet hes saying to wait?

Talk about mixed emotions??

[..Jessica..]

I know exactly what you're talking about!! DH has pushed our TTC back as well. Little does he know, I'll be testing next Monday!

I hope you two are able to come to a level ground!!!