[tparum]

Im so scared right now its not funny ive been waiting on the call after they do the blood test and they say will ur #s have started to drop and it looks as tho ur loseing it. I know thats not good to do gotta stay positive but u know the first call i got about my hcg the nurse who i just adore up there said that my hcg was great it was just my progestrone that wasnt good and that it looked as tho i was gonna lose the pg i cryed the whole day of course i mean who wouldent. and i also sit here thanking this might have been diffrent if i would have went to the dr. when i was scheduled to go. ive cryed so much just with in this week. so sometimes im good but others not so good have i lost it (my mind i mean) why cant i just get good thoughts in my head and stay that way? is it cause ive lost 3 b4 clay? and why cant the ones that really want children just have healthy babies? with no probs. and u walk around and take a good look theres so many parents out there that dont want kids. does that make since.

[Melanie0507]

I totally understand Tosha...there are so many people out there who have TONS of kids and treat them horribly and then there so many people who would make great parents to one or more children and just can't. It's not fair...

I understand your trouble staying positive, but hang in there Tosha. We are here for you...

[tparum]

I know u all are thats why i had to post it here cause i dont thank anyone else would understand i mean my #s are at a 60 and thats great news but i want answers so why do they make me wait for them?

[Mum2three]

Aww Tosha!! we are all here for you. I read your post and started to cry. It isnt fair that the good ones have to go through crap like what we have. where others that dont want them just take advantage of it. I wish i was there to give you a big old hug! My heart breaks for you. We are all here to lift your spirits up when ur feeling like this. Tosha i will keep you in my prayers. I really hope they say your levels are HIGH! Keep your chin up sweetie.

[tparum]

ty and sry maid u cry i guess still just going threw the phase right?

[luvmytinkerbelle]

I'm definitely goning to be thinking about you. I'll be praying that your numbers are high.

Hugs

[katiegirl]

The waiting is always the toughest. Hopefully you will hear something from the Dr early today.
You are in my T&Ps. KUP

[fairy9800]

Oh sweetie I am so sorry! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers! ((((HUGS))))

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Tosha, i am so sorry! I know what you mean about other people having kids and don't even want them and here we all want and don't have yet. I'm here for you if you need to talk. I hope the dr calls soon with good news.

[jademyst13]

I'm sorry Tosha. I hope they call you back early and with great news. I too wonder why all these other women have babies with no problems when they didn't want them or weren't planning and such.

[tparum]

ty ladies i go back mon. for more bloodwork lovely right lol im gonna have them check my progesterone as well as hcg cause if my hcg is going up maybe just maybe it went up as well.

[*Judy*]

AWWW Tosha, I am so sorry you are going through this. I understand everything you said. Sometimes it just isn't fair. I will be sending you postive vibes and just know we are here.