unique oportunity (and update on me)

Mommy2Makenna · #1 March 4th, 2008, 10:51 AM

The wife of one of the guys I work with is pregnant. Soon after she became pregnant, she told me to "hurry up" because it would be so cool to be pregnant together. Sure enough, I got pregnant. This is her 3rd child. When we were both pregnant (and both having ms) we would hang out together and tell the world ... "watch out... you don't want to mess with one pregnant woman, much less two". Just before I m/cd, I was chatting with her and telling her how nervous I was that something was wrong. When she found out the news that I mc'd, she didn't contact me too much -- I'm sure she wanted to give me some space.

Anyway, last week the guy I worked with asked me if I wanted to join them for their 4-D u/s. I wasn't sure what to think. She is 32w along and they already know it is a girl. I was afraid that I would be intruding on a very personal time for the two of them. I was also concerned how I would react. Would I cry? Would I be jealous? Would I be happy? Would I be sad? With a little convincing, I finally agreed to go with them. The u/s was today. The little girl wasn't very cooperative -- she was facing towards her mommy's back so they couldn't get any really good images, but I got to see her eyelid fluttering up and down,

I got to see her hands curled in a little fist

and I got to see her "practicing" her breathing with her lungs moving up and down.

Her Dr. offered to let her come back because they really didn't get to see much, so they have asked me if I want to go again next week.

I feel so blessed that this family allowed me to intrude into their appointment so I could see this wonderful little blessing. I feel like my friends are gently encouraging me to try again. I'm terrified of having my heart broken again, but I just can't give up on this dream.

My m/c was 4 months ago. We thought we would TTC again right away and we did try for one month, but then I decided that I needed to get my body in "order" first. I had lost nearly 30 lbs right before I got pregnant and I'd gained almost 20 of it back since the m/c. So, for the last 3 weeks I've been taking care of myself and I've lost almost 10 lbs. I'm doing a cleanse right now and will continue my diet for the next 2 months. We will begin TTC again at the end of April.

Well, sorry this is so long.... I've just been holding it in and looking for the right time to let it out. Thanks for listening ladies...