[Banned-ZoesMom]

Tears stream down Mommy's cheeks
As thoughts of you flood her mind
She wishes she could hold you,
Maybe kiss you one last time.
Memories racing through
Running quickly as the tears
Knowing all too well
Of all those empty years.
Vacant arms long to hold you
Chilly lips long to kiss
What Mommy wants is so simple
It's Mommy's only wish
It's only empty hope though,
Wishes don't come true
As much as Mommy longs
She can never be with you
But Mommy can feel your angel kisses
And she wipes away her tears
She can feel your angel hugs
Mommy's comforted you're here.
And Mommy will never forget you
Where does Mommy start?
To express and show you, beautiful angels, that
You're always in her heart.


I love you Rice and Bean. Always.

[..Jessica..]

[*Bobbie*]

Thanks for sharing that. It was so sweet
I wish I could write things. Me and words are not the best of friends most of the time

[Banned-ZoesMom]

I haven't written a poem in almost 2 years. That was the first one. I used to only write when I was depressed and suicidal and I haven't been that. I've found that my best words come when I'm down and cant go any further. I feel that way tonight. I've felt that way for a long time, and it occured to me that maybe letting my feelings out on paper will speed up the healing process.

I've been super emotional tonight. I have no clue why.

[spoons35]

What a beautiful and sad poem. It made me cry.

I'm not usually a big journal writer, but I found myself crying over my little bean's ultrasound picture one night. Without even thinking about it, I pulled out a paper and pen and wrote her a letter expressing my love and regret that we'll never be together. I really feel that it helped me acknowledge all of my sadness and anger and helped in the healing process. You have to do what you feel is right for you. The thing that surprised me after my m/cs was that I would be in the middle of a "normal"day and then would suddenly feel sad, angry, and really emotional. I personally believe it's part of the healing process.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful poem!

[Banned-ZoesMom]

You're welcome, and thank you for such kind words. I had people tell me today that a loss through miscarriage isn't as important as a stillbirth or a child who is born, lives for a while, then dies, but I feel differently. I feel that any and every loss is just as hard, just as painful, just as heartwrenching as another no matter what kind of loss it is. This poem can even be for a Dad to his angel(s), and that's what I told Mike tonight..he came change "Mommy" to "Daddy"..he was even fighting tears himself. He doesn't show his pain from losing our boys very often, but I know when he feels that way. The mother of the children always knows.

[Melanie0507]

That was beautiful Brandi!

I wish I could write like that, but it's just not one of my talents

You have a real gift, though...very touching!

[jademyst13]

that was beautiful

I too usually only write when I am sad. I have yet to write something for Noel, though I really want to.

[heatherrose415]

That was sooooooooooooooooo beautiful Brandi, it really did make me cry. You said it all so well.

((HUGS))

[victorialv]

that was very touching - thank you for sharing.

[mmgre703]

WOW Brandi that was beautiful. I just got on the computer this morning. It made me cry Thanks for sharing with us.

[lynie07]

Brandi that was so beautiful thankyou for sharing.