[mmgre703]

Last night dh and I went to my step daughters choir program. And 2 rows beside us there was a young girl with the cutest baby boy. Dh couldn't keep his eyes off of him. He keep making comments about the baby and I was trying not to focus on the baby because I was ready to break out in tears Then dh said something else and he looked at me and I had to tell him to stop because I had tears coming down my face. I felt so bad and I know dh did too. Then he was trying so hard to just make me laugh. Thats what he's good at. I just tried so hard not to cry but I couldn't help it. I can't believe how bad I felt. I was just wishing that was me. Today I would be 9wks too. When does it get better? I hate that I'm feeling this way. I want to be able to look and even hold a baby without crying. I guess I want a baby so bad and we have been trying since Sept and I didn't think all of this would happen. But I do have an appt with my OB tomorrow for my yearly(oh what fun) and to ask him questions. Hope I get the answers I need.

Thanks for listening ladies all of you have been nothing but wonderful!!
This board is so addicting too!!! I love it

[Mom 2 Avery]

I'm so very sorry for your loss and I completely understand!!!!
It's been almost three years for me and I still can't be around babies.

It DOES get better. I can promise that!
We all have our own timelines with it, that's all.

I hope you find the peace you need...and your DH keeps you laughing in spite of it all!
Sending hugs from Houston!
Dawna

[mmgre703]

I'm so very sorry for your loss and I completely understand!!!!
It's been almost three years for me and I still can't be around babies.

It DOES get better. I can promise that!
We all have our own timelines with it, that's all.

I hope you find the peace you need...and your DH keeps you laughing in spite of it all!
Sending hugs from Houston!
Dawna[/b]

Thanks for the kind words of encouragement!!! My dh is great. Gosh 3 years for you, you are a strong woman and still hanging in there. Thats awesome!!! I wish you the best of luck and thanks again.

[Melanie0507]

Like Dawna said, it will get easier, but it does take some time.

We are here for you, we have all been through similar situations and know what you are going through!

I hope your doctor can answer some questions for you tomorrow and get you on you way to holding your own precious little baby!!

[mmgre703]

Like Dawna said, it will get easier, but it does take some time.

We are here for you, we have all been through similar situations and know what you are going through!

I hope your doctor can answer some questions for you tomorrow and get you on you way to holding your own precious little baby!![/b]

Thanks Melanie, thats what I truely want to happen. I hope I get some answers too. I found out that I'm rh neg so I'd like to get more info on that. I hate that we are all here on such bad terms. But hopefully everyone gets the one thing we are all praying for. Thanks for listening.

[babyblue]

I am also sorry we have to meet on these terms, but I am glad you are here nonetheless!

My D&C was in November, and this month has been the best month for me yet. I can tell you, I started getting better after 2 or 3 weeks, and almost had a "honeymoon" phase where I felt really good and encouraged about things... but then it hit me like a ton of bricks again as I waited and waited and waited for my first cycle to come. I was very discouraged and sad and about that same time, I had friends & family members coming out of the woodwork telling me they were pregnant (I think I know 15 people who are pregnant right now ).

Today I am doing much better. I have been looking for distractions everywhere, just trying to shift my focus to something other than JUST getting pregnant. It is not easy and you will have phases that are worse than others, but it really does get easier. Just take it day by day and realize you will have better days and bad days, and eventually you will have some good days too, and before you know it, the good will start outweighing the bad.

I wish you the best and hope the ride to get your BFP is a short one for you!

[mmgre703]

I am also sorry we have to meet on these terms, but I am glad you are here nonetheless!

My D&C was in November, and this month has been the best month for me yet. I can tell you, I started getting better after 2 or 3 weeks, and almost had a "honeymoon" phase where I felt really good and encouraged about things... but then it hit me like a ton of bricks again as I waited and waited and waited for my first cycle to come. I was very discouraged and sad and about that same time, I had friends & family members coming out of the woodwork telling me they were pregnant (I think I know 15 people who are pregnant right now ).

Today I am doing much better. I have been looking for distractions everywhere, just trying to shift my focus to something other than JUST getting pregnant. It is not easy and you will have phases that are worse than others, but it really does get easier. Just take it day by day and realize you will have better days and bad days, and eventually you will have some good days too, and before you know it, the good will start outweighing the bad.

I wish you the best and hope the ride to get your BFP is a short one for you![/b]

Thanks Amber!!!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Yes I know it seems like everyone around us is preggo but us. It really seems unfair because we want it soooo bad. I'm hoping that my body goes somewhat back to normal. How long did you have to wait till your 1st cycle started? (I hope that isn't to personal if so I'm sorry)
I wish you the best of luck too on this ttc rollercoaster we got on.

[jademyst13]

It will get easier!

[mommy jenn]

i know what you mean!! the girl that sits by me at work is 14 wks pregnant and i cant stop beating myself up about having a m/c i would have been 9 wks 2moro not fun

we will be fine sooon dont worry

[mmgre703]

i know what you mean!! the girl that sits by me at work is 14 wks pregnant and i cant stop beating myself up about having a m/c i would have been 9 wks 2moro not fun

we will be fine sooon dont worry[/b]

Aw that has to be hard sweetie. But I guess we have stay positive I try to tell myself that will hopefully be me soon!!! Gosh we would have been close on our due dates. Lets try that again girl!!!

[ShannonMVT]

I'm sorry for your loss and that you are feeling so bad right now, but it really does get better in some ways. But then sometimes you may still have days where it gets to you. I still tend to avoid situations with pregnant women or babies if I can because it does make me sad.

Btw, I think my next period came about a month after my miscarriage.

((hugs))

[babyblue]

Thanks Amber!!!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Yes I know it seems like everyone around us is preggo but us. It really seems unfair because we want it soooo bad. I'm hoping that my body goes somewhat back to normal. How long did you have to wait till your 1st cycle started? (I hope that isn't to personal if so I'm sorry)
I wish you the best of luck too on this ttc rollercoaster we got on.
[/b]

No, I don't mind at all!

Mine finally came after 42 days, and that's after my doctor gave me prometrium to kickstart it. Ugh. And I don't think I've ovulated once since the m/c, so my body is still a little "asleep" so to speak. I started clomid yesterday so I'm hoping that will do the trick. I miss having EWCM, if you can believe that! Really I just wish it was back the way it used to be - when I could predict what my body was going to do each month.

[mmgre703]

No, I don't mind at all!

Mine finally came after 42 days, and that's after my doctor gave me prometrium to kickstart it. Ugh. And I don't think I've ovulated once since the m/c, so my body is still a little "asleep" so to speak. I started clomid yesterday so I'm hoping that will do the trick. I miss having EWCM, if you can believe that! Really I just wish it was back the way it used to be - when I could predict what my body was going to do each month.
[/b]

I will have my fingers crossed that the clomid works for you and gives you the jump start you need. It's is funny the little things we notice and we miss.

[..Jessica..]

I'm so sorry sweetie!!!

I promise it does get easier!

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I am sorry for your loss! It's hard, but it does get easier. You just have to take one day at a time. Like the other ladies said, you'll have good and bad days. Just know we are all here for you and we understand!!

[mmgre703]

Thankx ladies you all have a special place in my heart. I know it will take time but it just sucks!!! I'm so glad I have people to talk to that are in the same situation as me.

[dee68]

it takes time, but the pain will ease eventually...although I really do not think it ever goes away completely.
My loss was in Oct. 2006, I am now 24 weeks pregnant and I still cry for my angel. It is a heartbreaking thing that I wish NONE of us had to experience....
have you checked out the Pregnancy Loss Board here on JM ?.....It was a trememdous help for me and many ladies here while they were still dealing with their loss.....many of us still go to the board...it really helps alot. ~Hugs~

[mmgre703]

it takes time, but the pain will ease eventually...although I really do not think it ever goes away completely.
My loss was in Oct. 2006, I am now 24 weeks pregnant and I still cry for my angel. It is a heartbreaking thing that I wish NONE of us had to experience....
have you checked out the Pregnancy Loss Board here on JM ?.....It was a trememdous help for me and many ladies here while they were still dealing with their loss.....many of us still go to the board...it really helps alot. ~Hugs~[/b]

I haven't been on that board I will have to check it out. Thanks!!!! Congrats to you I hope everything is going good. How exciting!!!!!

[Mommy2Makenna]

I'm not an expert, but in my experience, it is very much so a roller coaster ride. Some days you are speeding forward, some you are flying high and other days you hit one of those drops that forces your stomach into your throat. I think I've been hitting one of those drops lately, so I know exactly how you feel. I think it is harder for me when I'm not actively ttc because my focus is on what I've lost, not what I'm trying to gain. I've been lurking around the May DDC (would have been my DDC, but I didn't find JM until after my m/c) and I keep seeing all these ladies at the stage where I SHOULD be. They all know what gender their baby is, they have u/s pictures and they are planning to bring home their new bundle of joy. I just can't even imagine right now how hard it is going to be when May 18 rolls around. Hang in their, girl... We are all there for you.