Welcome to the board, glad to have you join us, and very sorry for your loss. I just came here from the Nov Due Date Club on Friday, and I know what you mean about trying to be happy for others. I stop by there to say hi to the girls I had to leave, and I'm sad everytime I do.
This forum is amazing and full of help and concern for you. I can't describe how helpful the ladies here have been to me, I hope that you find the same thing for yourself.