Couple pics of Cam....

cam & sami's mom · #1 March 30th, 2008, 07:48 AM

Cam preparing for the transplant by eating a plate of chicken wings:

Transplant - if you look very closely you can see pink/red running in his IV. That is the marrow.

Mum2three · #2 March 30th, 2008, 07:53 AM

Lori, he is such a sweet boy. He is in my prayers every night. I really hope that everything turns out for the best. Give him a big squeeze from me!

Thanks for sharing your pictures...

*Bobbie* · #3 March 30th, 2008, 07:58 AM

Lori....

Thank you so much for sharing the pics with us. I will keep praying for him... like always. He must be one strong little man.

Give him a hug for me.

MinDB · #4 March 30th, 2008, 08:04 AM

in my prayers as always!!! give him big

for me even though he as no clue who i am.
my little cousin had a bone marrow transplant over a year ago and he's doing very well. i pray Cam does the same!

steph&dam · #5 March 30th, 2008, 08:32 AM

I am praying for him. The first weeks of a BMT is difficult, but the rewards are great!

Danica · #6 March 30th, 2008, 08:36 AM

Thanks for sharing Lori. I am always checking on Cameron and thinking about him throughout the day. He's getting tons of prayers and hugs from Colorado! Please KUP

How are you doing? Have you been able to sleep?

cam & sami's mom · #7 March 30th, 2008, 10:35 AM

I sleep ok. I stay at the hospital with Cam every other night. Those nights are worse for sleep because of all the hospital noise, vital signs every 4 hours, sleeping on a couch, etc. My off nights are usually at the Ronald McDonald House. It is noisy there too & I worry/feel anxious being away from Cam, but I often take an ambien to help. I can't take an ambien at the hospital because it zonks me and I could wake up fast enough if he needed me. Every other week I come home for 2 nights to "recharge" by sleeping in my own bed. That is where I am now. I will head back to the hospital tomorrow and DH will take his turn at home for a few days. We try to do them back to back to give Samantha several days to a week at home.

Other than that, I am pretty miserable. There are times when I am quite optimistic and happy about how things are going. Other times I am so scared that I will lose my baby that I can't stop crying. I feel like such a failure as a mom. I couldn't protect him from this and I can't help him through it. My faith has been shaken to the core. I'm not working now so I have very little non-medical contact so it's lonely too.

tparum · #8 March 30th, 2008, 11:20 AM

tysm for shareing pics of ur little man

~*Sam*~ · #9 March 30th, 2008, 11:34 AM

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. He is such a beautiful boy. I can not even imagine the fears and anxiety that you must be experiencing. Take Care, lots of Hugs to you and your little man.

mommy jenn · #10 March 30th, 2008, 12:09 PM

oh lori you are the bravest mom in the world!! i really wish all the best for you and your beautiful son.

katiegirl · #11 March 30th, 2008, 12:29 PM

Lori, I am praying for Cam and your entire family.

He seems to be such a strong boy to be able to go through all of this. It is a clear indication of what wonderful parents he has.
You are NOT a failure. You have and continue to do everything you can for your children.

I can not begin to understand everything you are going through emotionally.

Please know that you and in my T&Ps.

victorialv · #12 March 30th, 2008, 02:47 PM

Oh hon, lots and lots of prayers are being said for you and your family.

..Jessica.. · #13 March 30th, 2008, 03:43 PM

Oh Lori, you are definitely NOT a failure!!!! You are SUCH a strong woman, and I hope when I become a mother that I get the strength that you have!!!!

Cam is going to pull through this!!!! He is just like his mom and has amazing strength!!!!

Thank you for sharing his photos with us! Those chicken wings look reaaaaaaaaally good!!!

heatherrose415 · #14 March 30th, 2008, 03:54 PM

awww, he is so precious!! and always in my thoughts and prayers!!

You are NOT a failure one little bit, he is so lucky to have such strong and amazing parents!! you guys are such fighters, he gets it from you guys!!

You will ALL get through this!

lynie07 · #15 March 30th, 2008, 04:20 PM

aww sweetie don't you even think that you are a failure you are
a very strong woman,Cam looks like a fighter to me and with two
great parents by he's side he will do just fine, you and all your family
will be in my prayers day and night

to you all.

Danica · #16 March 30th, 2008, 07:05 PM

Oh Lori, you are the ideal example of a loving, strong mother. You are NOT a failure at all. You are a wonderful mommy to both Cameron and Samantha. They are very blessed. big HUGS. We are all here for you!

Eleysia · #17 March 31st, 2008, 01:33 PM

Lori,
I just wanted to add my T&P. You couldn't be further from the truth thinking you're a failure. You have an amazing heart, and a very strong will. He is fighting just as you and DH are, I'm sure he couldn't be more proud of you guys, as you are of him. ((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

Melanie0507 · #18 March 31st, 2008, 08:03 PM

Thanks for posting the pics! He is such a strong little boy!

I can't even begin to imagine what you have gone through and I don't know how I would ever even begin to do what you have done. You are a strong, strong woman and an awesome mom. Stay strong Lori!!

Brittanie · #19 March 31st, 2008, 09:25 PM

Why is it that we as women feel guilty for not protecting our children from things we have no control over?

It is so terrible that children get so sick.

But I agree with the others, you're not a failure. You're there for him and you love him, and I know that he knows that. That's what is important. In the end he would never blame you for his illness, but he would blame you for walking away. And you aren't doing that. You've stepped up to the plate, and that's more than a lot of moms do for a lot less.

My prayers are with Cameron and you, and your family. I hope you can be comforted while you wait, and I hope he comes out with flying colors.