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  #1  
August 1st, 2009, 11:38 AM
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I have a journal on TTC #1 board but I haven't posted in it in a while. I've been very...I don't know what the word is, the past two weeks. Hormonal is one word. I've done a lot of crying, just not around Matt. He's they type of wonderful husband who actually says that when I hurt he hurts so I don't want him upset. I started talking to him about adoption the other day and he told me not to think about it yet. I tried to explain to him that I'm trying to go ahead and expect the worst so hopefully my heart doesn't break as much. Of course logical, straight forward man that he is said, you're heart's going to break either way. Yes, I know, I'm trying to talk myself into believing otherwise I got my records from my previous two surgeries and insurance straightened out. I have an appointment with the fertility specialist/surgeon August 17th. Hopefully I can get the surgery the end of August or sometime in September. I'm sure that's wishful thinking but my OBGYN did say that they would try to get things taken care of as quick as possible because she knows if I'm not already living with daily pain I will be soon. I think that the big *blob* on my left side is making itself known. It's been hurting today. Normally my all month pain is only on the right side. I also thing I'm going to see if the doctor can give me something to try and prevent migraines because they've been getting worse, as well as something for anxiety/panic attacks which will also help me sleep because I haven't been doing a lot of that. I haven't exactly told my mom about my blob yets. She'll panic since I'm a 5 hour car ride and 8 hour flight away from her. The last thing I want is to know where the crap my Pre-seed is. I ordered it about 3 weeks ago and it's still not here.
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Our adoption miracle born 12/31/13


06/2004 - Lap for endo and cysts
08/2006 - Lap for endo and cysts
02/2010 - Lap for endo, cysts, and hydrosalpinx repair
02/2011 - Lap for endo, cysts, and RSO
12/2011 - TAH and LSO
5/2012 - Lap for adhesions
4/2013 - Lap for adhesions
Stage IV endometriosis, sever adenomyosis, PCOS, IC
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September 4th, 2009, 07:34 AM
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Im soooooooooooooooooooo sorry!!! that REALLY SUCKS!!! hang in there I know its tuff but you are strong!! I know that doesnt really help... but hang in there!! HUGS!! I know how you feel about your hubby... mine is THE SAME WAY!! and I HATE complaining or crying about being in pain because he just looks like I feel... it makes me feel bad... so I try to not say anything... if you need to talk to someone Im here HUGS
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September 26th, 2009, 04:29 AM
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I need to vent today so I'm using my journal. DH has been having issues with his chain of command. He and the person directly over him went to the next person up to talk, calmly and all adult like about everything that is going on. It didn't go so well. He was in tears when I got home. The stupid jerk called him all sorts of names. Lazy, crap bag (in other words), a horrible person, said he was raping the taxpayers because he was only doing his job and volunteering (he's paid to do his job which he does every other day with no weekends or holidays off which means his off days he has personal stuff to do and wants to spend time with me). The part that really p'd me off was the fact that he said he was a horrible husband. He's a good husband, he loves me and would do anything for me. I may be a woman but I can take care of myself. I'll have not only a college degree in three months but also a licensed paralegal in a year then I'm going for my masters. I'll be taking care of him..... uhhh It made him start questioning himself and now in the back of his mind he's wondering if he is a bad husband. I don't know what to do to help him. I hugged him and told him all the wonderful things I love about him. I bought him a card today to try and convince him. I kinda feel lost.
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Our adoption miracle born 12/31/13


06/2004 - Lap for endo and cysts
08/2006 - Lap for endo and cysts
02/2010 - Lap for endo, cysts, and hydrosalpinx repair
02/2011 - Lap for endo, cysts, and RSO
12/2011 - TAH and LSO
5/2012 - Lap for adhesions
4/2013 - Lap for adhesions
Stage IV endometriosis, sever adenomyosis, PCOS, IC
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October 26th, 2009, 10:45 AM
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I should really do this more often. It might feel better to get things out I go to the doctor tomorrow to get the results from my MRI. I'm worried that it's cancer, I'm worried the doc's gonna say I have to get everything on my left side removed, I'm scared I'm going to have to have everything taken out. On top of that I'm now on CD32. For the 5 month now my cycles have been in the 30's or 40's so I'm pretty sure I'm not ovulating. I guess on the plus side the doc might start Clomid depending on the MRI results. If he goes that route maybe I can actually start this month, whenever AF shows which I'm pretty sure is soon since the cramps have been kicking in the past little while. I think another wonderful new PMS/endo symptom is having an upset stomach a few days before AF shows along with nausea and UTI symptoms.
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Our adoption miracle born 12/31/13


06/2004 - Lap for endo and cysts
08/2006 - Lap for endo and cysts
02/2010 - Lap for endo, cysts, and hydrosalpinx repair
02/2011 - Lap for endo, cysts, and RSO
12/2011 - TAH and LSO
5/2012 - Lap for adhesions
4/2013 - Lap for adhesions
Stage IV endometriosis, sever adenomyosis, PCOS, IC
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May 14th, 2010, 04:16 PM
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I had my CD 21 (22 actually) blood work today and...................I OVULATED!!!!!! wooohoooo. I'm pretty sure that's the first time in months...years... Symptoms listed by DPO

1DPO - nada

2DPO- nausea, exhausted, peeing more, creamy CM

3DPO- nausea, exhausted peeing more, cramps started, even more creamy CM

4DPO - nausea was a lot worse, exhausted, peeing more, creamy CM, cramps got stronger...serious bloating....I mean looking 3 months pregnant bloating

5DPO- nausea was gone for the most part, still exhausted, still peeing more, so much creamy CM that I needed to wear a liner, 2 or 3 dizzy spells, cramps easing off, a few strong twinges around my right ovary, serious bloating still


Knowing me I'll starting testing like tomorrow You never know.... Unfortunately though all the things I'm experiencing are side effects of Clomid. Granted the exhaustion, bloating, and peeing more only happen in like 1% but hey I'm special
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Thanks to :shortcake: for my siggy

Our adoption miracle born 12/31/13


06/2004 - Lap for endo and cysts
08/2006 - Lap for endo and cysts
02/2010 - Lap for endo, cysts, and hydrosalpinx repair
02/2011 - Lap for endo, cysts, and RSO
12/2011 - TAH and LSO
5/2012 - Lap for adhesions
4/2013 - Lap for adhesions
Stage IV endometriosis, sever adenomyosis, PCOS, IC
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May 15th, 2010, 10:47 AM
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6DPO--> not really anything. I'm still having cramps off and on and some bloating but that's about it. Sore throat, stuffy nose, crap running down my throat...blah. I feel a little "off" maybe it's just my allergies going nuts. Still have tons of creamy CM


I feel different. It's hard to explain, maybe it's just my hormones and my body acting the way they normally will when I O, it just hasn't happened in so long I don't know what it's like.
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Thanks to :shortcake: for my siggy

Our adoption miracle born 12/31/13


06/2004 - Lap for endo and cysts
08/2006 - Lap for endo and cysts
02/2010 - Lap for endo, cysts, and hydrosalpinx repair
02/2011 - Lap for endo, cysts, and RSO
12/2011 - TAH and LSO
5/2012 - Lap for adhesions
4/2013 - Lap for adhesions
Stage IV endometriosis, sever adenomyosis, PCOS, IC
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May 16th, 2010, 03:44 PM
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7dpo---> today's pretty much the same. bouts of dizziness, exhausted (just had a really nice nap) cramps off and on but they are easing up today instead of getting worse like they would normally be doing, still no migraine!!!!!, boobs are starting to get a little sore (could be cause I keep pushing them) still really bloated.

I want pickles!!! My mom makes these "refrigerator" pickles that are sweet but aren't dill. They are so good and I sat down with a bowl of all that was left the other night.

Yesterday was a loooooong day. By lunch time I was running a low grade fever that got up to 100.1. By last night it was down to 99.2. I felt like I was getting the flu. I didn't even have the energy to stand. I read a lot of places and talked to a few friends and they said that they were running a low grade fever and felt like they were coming down with the flu around implantation time. If that's true then a test should show up positive by Wed. at the latest. Im so nervous and scared. I really don't want to be disappointed.
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Thanks to :shortcake: for my siggy

Our adoption miracle born 12/31/13


06/2004 - Lap for endo and cysts
08/2006 - Lap for endo and cysts
02/2010 - Lap for endo, cysts, and hydrosalpinx repair
02/2011 - Lap for endo, cysts, and RSO
12/2011 - TAH and LSO
5/2012 - Lap for adhesions
4/2013 - Lap for adhesions
Stage IV endometriosis, sever adenomyosis, PCOS, IC
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