[mommy_to_nico]

well me and hubby hadn't been ttc since feb when i got a bfn and i just needed a break, emotionally it was killing me. recently this month had an issue with our condom. it broke 2 weeks before i was due for my af. so i was a lil freaked out and as the weeks went on i dreamed about what if my body is getting ready to concieve etc.. i was kinda getting excited and hubby was kinda hoping as well. well today af showed up and i cried a bit. hubby texted me and told me when he gets home we'll cuddle. but we were kinda relieved b/c we have vacation coming up in july and we are going to a amusement park with water rides & dry rides. We are looking forward to that. we are also still unsure if we want to ttc in july or not, figuring we have our disney trip coming up, in nov. our in laws surprised us and we couldn't say no. but its nerve racking b/c we really wanted to start ttc again and i was trying to think of all the scenerio's but it just wouldn't be fair if i got pregnant before we go to disney, i know my son will want to go on the rides but only if i go or maybe not? anyone ever felt like everything is always with ttc is put on hold when you want to ttc again. plus i have some issues with losing weight. i need to badly i'm 40lbs heavier than last yr so i'm going to the gym 2 a week to keep my mind off baby stuff and to lose weight. trying to not pick at junk food and i'm a emotional eater, so stress and aniexty cause me to eat, yeah thats me.. ugh...things will get better though. looking forward to summer. well hope all is well with everyone. take care. tareena

[Servilia]

Hey Tareena,
I'm sorry things are difficult. Yes sometimes it feels like I put things on hold bc of TTC. Like vacation planning is togh because I want to go early or in the middle of the cycle, not near the end of it, etc. I hope you figure things out soon!