[mommy_to_nico]

I was 2 days late and yesterday evening i was spotting and this morning she came full on, i cried a little. we are talking about trying in Jan and we decided to, now we are going to tell my counslor. we are going b/c she helps me. we spoke about getting a supplement that will increase his sperm count and he agreed with me. so i bought to start him off 1 mth of counterbooster at fairhavenhealth.com

it was 19.95 with free shipping. then i bought for myself Fertile CM since i have a lack of CM i've noticed recently in the past months. then i bought prenatals they were 16.95 all orders for a limited time free shipping. my insurance doesn't cover the prenatals i was taking anymore b/c they changed to cvs caremark plan , ugh thats what u get with medcaid HMO. n and i've got an appointment but its not for another 3 weeks and i got a 2 mth supply. figure depending what they can find that does accept my insurance, i have 2 months to keep me going. then my friend said she paid 7 dollars for prenatals at walmart, i was like ugh...

so i have back up choices if they have me waiting to find one that accepts my insurance. Finished nick& larry's x mas present shoppin. just have to pick up non christmas stuff, like socks me & nick, some work out pants for me n nick. maybe a nice pair of brand name jeans. that would be nice, that actually fit me lol. I can't wait till next yr, i hope that this supplements we take work and i get pregnant. I don't care if i'm pregnant for the ceremony, children come when they want to, i want a baby with larry and i can have it all. It's our life and i was letting my friends and family infulence me to put it on the back burner and i don't want that. I want to do this with larry and feel more confidant. We will achieve this and we will have a baby girl next yr i'm praying. i was even thinking about once i'm pregnant i will get off my meds and go back on after i breast feed for a day or two if i get my milk in. when i had nick, it didn't come for 2 weeks.

I was going to stay on my meds, but my pyschatrist said not to b/c of the catogory C, it is. Catogory A is good. Doc are trying to make it an A but the finding are not enough, with all the articles and research i have done, i make a vaild point, but to get a doc to approve with be hard. her policy she wont treat me if pregnant. but i don't want to go off it if i'm not pregnant and we are trying, b/c i'm very moody & emotional, i have bipolar, i've been on meds for 4 yrs. i don't know if i can handle ttc and being off meds, i've done it before not a happy experience. i did it for 3 months i almost had a mental break down, the negatives, killed me inside and i was crying and didn't take care of myself. so if i do decide to go off, i'll be pregnant when i do and i'll have to wean myself off. 75mg one week, 50mg one week and 25 mg 1 week and then i'll be off. it will take 3 weeks but it shouldn't effect the baby b/c it's early in the pregnancy. Or i can go lower each month so the dosage is low and only 1-2 weeks of weaning off. I will discuss this with a new doc, b/c i'm probly not going back to dr R.

i really would love if a doc was approving of me being on this med, b/c the benefit out weighs the risk, i am going to see if i can see anotherand hopefully the doctor approves. we'll see. i have choices, been doing research, i have a lot to back up my point. i'm going to get myself checked out, cardiologist, gyn etc. taking vitamin D, i've been taking prenatals since Oct last yr. i'll keep u all updated ttys!

[Cait&AngelAbove]

Tareena I am so sorry that af showed!!! I would definately try to find a new doctor who is willing to work with you. I think there are a couple medicines that they do allow pregnant women to take but I think it depends on the doctor. I hope the vitamins help and that you get your bfp real soon!!!