[sweet.hun]

Hi girls, I'm Shasta (27) DH is Jesse (26). I used to be here about oh, a year ago I think. Maybe a little longer than that. My husband and I were TTC, but after getting some heartbreaking news from our fertility specialist, we've decided to leave it in God's hands whether we become pregnant or not.

As a little background, I've had 2 miscarriages (Feb '06 and March '11) and since then we haven't been able to conceive. The doctor told me I have a genetic/chromosome issue that makes it hard to conceive without IVF. If we do conceive on our own, we have a 90% chance to miscarry. I haven't seen a geneticist to go through the entire details of what is going on yet.

We think I'm going through either a miscarriage or had a chemical pregnancy now, as I received a positive pregnancy test the day after we found out this devastating news. Of course, I had my blood hcg levels drawn and they were only a 3.

My husband and I don't have the $20,000 to do IVF, so we're basically NTNP until we can save up some money to either do IVF or adoption. I'm not going to lie, I would love a miracle but I don't know if I can handle more miscarriages.

So anyways, hi everyone! If you got through that, I applaud you.

[Ember Rose]

I'm sorry you're going through all of that. FX something breaks through for you guys.

[OCBlonde985]

I'm sorry about your situation but commend you on your positive attitude! Ive seen u around AIP boards too...I think I have fertility issues as I have never been able to conceive except a chemical in 2008 but I was NTNP until yesterday when my bf decided he wanted to wait a little and use condoms for now...I could be preggo now tho possibly I'm 10dpo and too afraid to test and get my heart broken. I'm always here should you want to talk. Nice to meet you