I went to my appt today and had a BPP today. Everything looked good as far as baby goes. However, by the end of my appt I had to sign a consent for emergency procedures for if the "sh*t hits the fan and I can't consent"(all of which are in my birth plan for not wanting) but DH and I were ADAMANT about assuring we can refuse in anything other than a genuine emergency and my dr assured me this was the case that everything in any other case is a discussion and I definitely trust her--I just hope I don't get a doc that sucks. DH is VERY assertive about that kind of stuff so I know he'll help me stand up to any doc that may not go according to my birth plan. The consent also still said I could refuse anything right in it which was the ONLY reason I signed it.
But I had her sweep my membranes because she is talking about inducing me on Monday if I haven't had him. I really have worked hard through the pregnancy to achieve the birth that I want and I'm feeling really deflated that there's a chance I'm going to really have to fight to get it.

I will be nearly 42 weeks according to their due date and according to date of conception by Monday I will actually be closer to 43 weeks.
So I'm going to try and go into work today I think and get my mind off of everything. I don't know what more to do