[jennar]

Last June my husband and I lost our first baby at 36 weeks due to undetected placental issues. We were/are devestated and started trying to conceive again as soon as we were able to. We didn't have any trouble getting pregnant the first time, but we have been trying for 10 months and we have had 2 early losses. I am so frustrated and angry and everywhere I look people we know are getting pregnant and having their babies, and I feel guilty for being so angry at them. As the one year anniversary approaches, I feel more and more sad and anxious to fix what is broken. I try to be positive and stay strong, but it gets harder and harder as more time passes.

In January, I stopped ovulating (probably due to stress), and started taking clomid in March. I'm also taking progesterone after ovulation while I wait to take a pregnancy test.

I was hoping to find other people who may be going through something similar, because I feel like I am the only person that this has ever happened to. Everyone else seems to get pregnant and have healthy babies without any trouble at all. It is heartbreaking!

Thank you for reading and responding! I just want to feel like I'm not alone in this struggle.

[Sing365]

Hi Veteran,

I've always only been a reader of posts, but felt compelled to join the message board and reply to your post to let you know that you aren't alone.
I am so sorry to hear that you have also lost a beautiful child, and I hope you and your partner are doing as well as can be. We feel the same way that you described, that it seems like everyone in the world is pregnant and we can't seem to be able to.
I delivered our baby girl Angel on 1st Dec 2012 at 32 weeks after I noticed that she wasn't kicking - my obgyn was on leave and a replacement doctor was called to attend to me and told me that unfortunately we had lost the baby, her heart was no longer beating due to suspected umbilical cord accident.
We have been trying since March this year and no luck so far. I went back to the obgyn that delivered me and she gave me a scan and said that Ihad just ovulated and could see the evidence of that, and to just relax, dont chart, and try every couple of days from day 11. Before falling pregnant with Angel I was on Yasmin with regulated 28 day cycles and we fell pregnant on the 2nd month of trying. Now my cycles are getting longer and longer, the last month it was 37 days.
It has now been 6 months of trying and we have decided that if we don't fall pregnant this cycle, we will meet with a fertility clinic to see if there are any issues.
I am hoping that both yourself and I will fall pregnant soon