[danniegirl]

Why am I going through this all again. I am starting to think Zoloft is not for me. i am back to the starting point. I am ready to admit defeat. I am trying things other than meds as working out. HEre is the main thing though. I found out that dpression runs in my family. My father commited suicide becuase of it. I dont want to end up like him. I am currently a single mother until dh gets back from his deployment plus working full time. I am tired and just have no energy anymore.

Today I ran 4 miles and when I got back to my unit i just cried becuase i cant run. I had to have three people calm me down. My meds arent working anymore. blah. they uped my dosage 3 months ago to 100mg so maybe it is time to start something new.

I am sorry I am rambling I seriously have no one to talk to about this. I cant tell anyone in my family nor my husband that i am afraid i am going to end up like my father.

[andi2284]

It may be a good idea to see if there are any other options. Have you considered going to a psychiatrist (if you aren't seeing one already)? I've been doing therapy through my psychiatrist's office and they are also the ones prescribing meds and monitoring them for me. I know that is can sometimest be difficult to get a referral, but it may be worth it to see someone more specialized in mental health for your treatment.

I hope you are able to find something that works! If you ever need to talk, please feel free to PM me!

[JessW7]

I think if you havent been seeing a psychiatrist it may be very helpful to start. I dealt with PPD after DS#2 and suffered in silence for so long. When I began talking about it with family and friends and seeing a psychiatrist I started to really heal. Being with DH can be so hard, I felt like mine was never there, he was gone from morning to night everyday, and I think thats why it hit me so hard. It took me 16 months to really heal. Its a process, but talking and just having people understand will help IMO. If you need to vent you can message me, I'm not on here much during the week but I will certainly get back to you. I know how hard it is to deal with PPD in silence!

[danniegirl]

I am also speaking iwth a counselor but it isnt working anymore. Maybe it is becuase I hve endoured so much since the start of this year. I guess my biggest concern is that I found out after my fathers suicide that depression runs in my damily. I just dont want to end up like him. I have another counseling session tomorrow and tuesday I have an appointment with my doctor to switch meds.

[andi2284]

I'm very sorry that your family had to go through that. Depression is such a difficult illness to deal with and I can understand how discouraging it is to see a close family member commit suicide because of it.

We were stationed at Ft Bragg for several years, including when my first DD was born. I remember hearing about a PPD group there that might be some really good support. Ask your doctor or counselour and they should be able to give you more information about it. It may help to go to some meetings and be able to talk about what you are are going through with other people who have been there or who are also going through the same thing.

Keep us updated on how your appointments go!

[JessW7]

I can't imagine how hard that must be for you with your father and finding out it could be genetic. I agree with pp that maybe a support group would be helpful, I think it helps to just know you aren't alone. Talking about how you are feeling and your fears could be very helpful, even outside of counsling. PPD is so hard even by itself, please don't fight it alone! We are here for you and other groups might be available to you as well. You've already made such a huge step in admiting there is a problem there and trying to get help. Believe in yourself. We believe in you!

[JessP]

I hope that things are getting better and that your counselor had some options that help. Maybe talking to your family could help. Sometimes but not always.
Big huge hugs to you.

[kerian]

hon, i am so sorry you not feeling better.
i totally understand where you coming from. my mom commited suicide and i am always praying i dont go down that road.

i would def chat to your doc and also ask him to refer you to someone more qualified then your counsellor.