[tangerine]

I am 9 months pp and I am fairly sure I'm dealing with PPD. I've been able to "cope" for the most part, but lately I have felt really unstable. I keeping having bad days and it is something I can't or shouldn't overlook anymore. It is so difficult for me to admit this, I don't like to feel out of control or helpless!

I feel so angry and frustrated most of the time, and then I'll feel guilty for having these feelings and then that will make me feel sad. I also feel anxious ALOT, I worry about everything and I'm not sleeping well. It's a cycle of craziness!

I tried calling my OB last week to see about coming in, but I have no insurance anymore. It will cost me $300-$500 to see him as he wants to run blood work to check my thyroid. This really made me feel defeated, but I decided to just call my regular doc and they would see me for $65. I think I can get meds from him w/o the blood work, but the day I was to go in my battery in the my truck died. lol, seriously I feel like things are stacked against me somedays.

I had another "bad" day yesterday and by 9p last night I had completely melted down. LO was soooo fussy yesterday, she's teething. She had only taken an hour nap all day and I just felt so overwhelmed. My family is worried about me, I know they are and I feel so bad that I am acting like this.

Anyway, this is where I'm at and I'm glad to have found this forum.

[JessP]

I am so sorry no one replied earlier. Did you ever get in to see your dr? They can give you meds without having to do blood work. That seems kind of strange to check your thyroid when you are feeling that way. Talking and working out is helpful if you aren't able to get meds. The other thing is to take a break. Or on especially fussy days give yourself a little break by placing her in her crib just a few mins and walk away. She will be ok and you will gain some peace and control back. Feeling anxious is no fun and worrisome too. Please let us know what your dr says and how you are doing. Now that spring is coming that might help too.

[andi2284]

Some doctors will do bloodwork because they feel there could be a medical problem for the way you are feeling (lack of energy, etc) however your symptoms seem to really point to PPD.

Did you get in to see your doctor? Please gives us an update!