[KatieBeth]

I feel like I am truly losing it. There are moments that I just feel like dying but know that in my heart I really do not want to die. The images that keep running through my head I can't stop. The thought of getting in a car and crashing into a bridge, or cutting my wrist with a knife. I do not want to die I am not suicidal I just do not want to feel like this anymore.

My son's name is Matthew Curtis and I hate it. But I can't find a name that seems to suit him. Everything just does not sound like the right name, I have so much anxiety that I can't stop it. Anyone have any advice suggestions. I feel like I am truly losing it.

I know everyone says this gets better with antidepressants however, I have been on wellbutrin since the 23 week of my pregnancy to try and avoid the PPD however, it does not seem to help. I still feel like I am losing it. What happens if antidepressants don't work.

[Hailee&Nevansmommy]

Im rlly sorry you feel this way...I think you should talk to someone professional maybe.. sometimes antidepressants can work, others not. In my case zoloft made my obsessing/ruminating much worse, i actually feel better being off it the past couple mo.

For me, when the antidepressants didnt work I went off them, Im doing PPD group, therapist once in a while, and starting meditation tuesday.

Basically, a few times ive wanted to go on my old antidepressant celexa over the past couple weeks, but im waiting it out a bit longer... however i do know i feel 100x better than on the zoloft for 16 months.

[JessW7]

Im sorry you are struggling with this. I had these same issues previously and I think the best thing to do is talk about it. Talk to your doctor, find a support group, a good shoulder to cry on. Know that you will be ok. It may take time but you will be ok! I would suggest something for anti anxiety maybe with an antidepressant for a while, I personally took kolonopins for a while and it helped a lot. I also think exercising is very theraputic. It relieves stess, releases endorphins and relaxs your body which helps the mind. I think though you need to make sure you are not isolating yourself, thats what I did and I found myself in a truely ugly dark place. Good luck and keep us posted!

[JessP]

For me the best thing was always exercise. I never did great on meds or things like that. But even just three days a week an hour to my self just working off the stress made me feel so much better. Even just a walk outside. That is just me though and everyone is different. If the meds aren't helping you should talk to your dr and try something else. Not all meds are created equal.