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I need to catch up too.
Monday:
I had a somewhat normal childhood, we lived in Roscoe Illinois from the time i was a year & a half until the end of my 4th grade year. My parents were pretty normal, have a good marriage, my dad did have a drinking problem though. He has been sober for 20 yrs now, but the first 15 yrs were hard on my mom. My dad wasnt abusive, he was a fun drunk...but my mom said it was like having an adult 5 yr old to take care of. He was the first one on the slip & slide, the one swinging way high on the swings and jumping off, the one throwing entire handfuls of fireworks in the campfire, etc. When we were kids, he was just a cool, fun dad. But when i got to be 12-ish, all i did was worry. He was on a bowling league, so he came home really late, drunk. I got very little sleep on 2 school nights out of the week.
The summer before my 5th grade year, we moved to Valparaiso, Indiana. The company my dad worked for shut down that particular plant, so they relocated everyone. My dad picked the Valpo plant bc it was near my grandparents and great-grandpa (his mom, dad & grandpa). We moved there and i met some good friends, some of whom i still am in touch with. From 5th grade until i graduated, pretty much sucked though. I had a few close friends, but pretty much everyone else at my school were mean. They had all been together since kindergarten & i was the outsider. I had poor body image and major self-esteem issues. I always thought i was fat, looking back at pictures there were very few photos where i did look chunky, i was thin in the rest...but i thought i was huge! By high school, you could say i was anorexic, but it was part-time. I never ate breakfast, at school i had a diet mountain dew and some curly fries, at home for dinner nothing. But i always binged on weekends. Aside from school and body issues, when i look back at my childhood i do feel i had a good childhood. I had great times outside of school. I hung out with the stoner/trouble maker crowd, we mostly played hacky sack at lunch or just hung out outside sneaking cigarettes. Lol. I had a stoner rep at school, but honestly never touched pot until i was almost 19. Lol. But i was never a daily smoker of pot, just on occasion.
Fast forward through the boring stuff. Lol
I met Brian on myspace. I was instantly in love and we hadnt even met. We finally met in April of 2006. We made plans to live together, i researched jobs in his area, met his 3 yr old son, etc. Brian kept talking about having kids with me. I found out in june that i was pg. I was so excited & thought he would be too. His whole attitude changed. He denied i was pg, kept saying i was just late. We racked up huge credit card bills, in my name. He started breaking plans, first telling me his ex found out about me and didnt want me around their son, so i was ok with staying home every other weekend. Then he all of a sudden would have plans with his cousin or family friend or who ever. I went from spending every weekend with him, to one weekend a month. I spent 4th of July weekend with him. July 1st i woke up with cramping and light bleeding. I woke him up, but he wouldnt go to the store to get me some pads. When i got back from the store, i had heavy bleeding. I was bleeding like i had been stabbed. He said, "See i told u that u were just late." I started hating him then. Finally his mom came home and i told her what was happening. We went to the ER, Brian refused to come with. I had to face this by myself. His mom was nice, but i didnt want her there. The dr kept saying my blood work was good, so i might just be experiencing bleeding but not necessarily a m/c. I knew though. I confirmed it myself when i got my u/s and saw nothing. The u/s tech said nothing, wouldnt answer any ?'s, just said the u/s had to be read by a dr. I knew, otherwise she would have been talking about the baby. I was on bedrest for the remainder of the weekend. I went home that Wednesday and told my parents. Brian was "busy" from then on until i broke up with him in august. He was cheating on me with several other women. I ended it and would love to say i never saw him again....but in Oct he contacted me, apologized and said he was taking his bipolar meds. We saw each other a few times until December, when he dropped off of the face of the earth.
Rewind a bit to October, when a new guy hired in at work and was interested in me.
I will finish later, i am at work now. lol
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Marsha,
Fiancé to Matt,
Mom-Mom to Samantha Morgan (07/01/08), Charlotte Matthew (born 06/29/2010) & Dalton Lee (born 12/07/2011).
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Glad you had a great childhood! Brian sounds like the worlds worst guy!! So glad you got rid of him!! But you left me hanging!! I am waiting for more.....
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