Wanted to share the letter I wrote for Aidyen for his 1st Birthday

nevergivingup · #1 July 28th, 2011, 02:29 PM

I lost this the day after his birthday and just found it this morning and wanted to share it with you

My beautiful son:
Where has the time gone? I can't believe its already been one year since one of the happiest days of my life, the day you were born. One year ago today at 4:44 in the afternoon through the intense pains of labor, I pushed you out into this world and into our lives. Never would I have imagined the impact you would have in our life. Over the past 10 years it seemed like there was a piece of my heart missing. The day you were born that piece was filled.

My precious Aidyen Quest:
For 9 1/2 years before you were even conceived I longed, desired, prayed, and dreamt of you. I loved you before I ever knew you, and when I met you I knew I would lay my life down for you. Never has there been a more desired child than you my love.

My Little Lovebug:
I love you so much you couldn't even imagine. All of the world's beautiful and eloquent words couldn't even describe the love I have for you. It comes from such a deep place in my heart that you will only know when you have your own children.

You are so amazing and bring me such overwhelming joy each day. Even the very rough days are a blessing. I love everything about you Aidyen. I loved during those early days when we would nurse and through my tears from the pain you would wrap your little hand around my finger and look up at me with those beautiful brown eyes.
I love it when music comes on and you start dancing and look at us with a little smirk on your face, making sure we are dancing too. I love how you are so attached to me that you cry when I leave the room.
I love the way you used to call me "my momma, my momma" and now I love the way you already want to be like your big brother and call me what he does "mom"
I love the faces you make when you feed yourself
I love the way you smile, it lights up my world
I love your sweet laugh
I love watching you sleep
and I even love the way you cry

I thank God that He has blessed us with such wonderful boys, and I pray that you will always know how special, wanted, and loved you are and always will be

Love,
Momma

I am so blessed to have my sweet little Aidyen. I went through 9 1/2 years of wanting, praying, begging God for him. I went through years of severe depression because of my infertility...the last 2 years were definitely the hardest and darkest times in my life, BUT, God has a plan and a purpose and was faithful...He answered my prayer in the most beautiful way, and this little boy right here is the most beautiful living proof of an answered prayer