[shockandawe]

So you ladies saw it! I made the declaration to begin my regimen today and if you know me, this is a monstrous gigantic leap for me.

I remember a long while back we had a thread started that said "what is food to me". Well of all the associations one could make, I don't think I even responded to that post because I was so embarrassed that the reality is that food is "life" to me. It has been my coping mechanism for everything. When I'm stressed I binge. When I am happy I eat. When I am sad, I generally go through a starvation period of a day or so, and then I binge. But I also love all things food. I love all kinds of food. Food helped me patch the holes of a heart too often broken, and helped it to keep on ticking while I searched for loves that would truly mend it back together. Good food, not so good food. Love it all. And I hate...read loathe...sweating and exercise.

I have a lot to lose, enough that it will some days feel absolutely impossible. I'm talking the equivalent of a whole other person. But I won't have to lose that much just to start feeling better. I have to take this slow, but know that every single pound is going to be such a small victory in the grand scheme of things.

I'm gonna need help. And some days it's probably going to seem like I'm whining, but when you have the equivalent of a whole person to lose, and your back is crippled up in pain, it's going to be more days than not when quitting feels more reasonable. All I ask is that you please bare with me and help keep me focused and share in my victories. If we can keep this space active, I'm sure my journey alone could keep us going for quite some time! I hope I can count on you ladies and not bore you all to death. I'm sure I can though (bore you and count on you) . You're all so inspiring. Love ya!

So in the spirit of complete honesty. I'm going to log here every day what I've had to eat and what active things I've done (other than type on my keyboard and chase my child!)...LOL.

For breakfast, I had a breakfast musli pita toasted with a bit of butter, and am having a coffee with milk and sweetener. I've already had 8 ozs of water.

For snacks I had a pear with a bit of peanut butter and a small handful of almonds, some veggie sticks. I had half a tuna salad pita bread sammy with a salad, and for dinner I had homemade chili with fat drained. Super yummy. And I've had a good 24 more ozs of water.

I've caulked a bath tub. Moved some boxes to storage, moved an antique cedar chest down two flights of stairs, and now I'm about to go and start cleaning up some of the floor reno mess DH has made. Fun wow!

***edited to update my meals and my activity for the day.

[*BabyMaMa*]

Take it slow and easy...one step at a time. Weight will come off. Lifestyle change is the way to go. I'm glad I have someone else here to motivate me

[sfarrow3]

I'm here too!!!!! Yes take it slow. You are inspiring me!

[starrsgirl]

Great job!! Keep up the good work!

[Jule'sMomInOR]

I heard something that inspired me once and I'll try to paraphrase. It was something like "Don't give up on your goals because of how long it will take to reach them. The time will pass one way or another, and at the end, you can either have maintained your goals for maintained the status quo." In other words, even if it's going to take you 2 years to get to your goal wait, unless you have a catastrophic accident, you're going to be around in 2 years. When it comes to weight loss, slow and steady wins the race. Good luck!