[ElizabethS]

I took him to the doctor today and after she has read the notes from the teacher and notes from his counseling session on Friday with the psychologist, she is 100% convinced he has Aspergers. I am devastated. We are putting him on an "anti-psychotic" drug to help with some of his aggression, and keeping him on the ADHD meds she originally prescribed for him to help him focus and stay relaxed. It's basically a social anxiety disorder that they label as Pervasive Developmental Disorder.

I bought a book on the way home to understand more about it but I'm so depressed. I have just sat and cried several times today blaming myself. First off for picking his father....who lord knows had problems. I would never wish him not born or not himself, but I feel that since I chose to have a child with this man its my fault that he would end up with this. Then I ask myself...did I do something wrong during my pregnancy? Is it my fault? Logically I know its not my fault but emotionally I feel it is. I'm sure I'll get over this hump but I'm just super depressed right now about it all.

He goes to a private Christian school at this time and he's doing so horribly behavior wise that the teacher is about fed up with him. They do not offer special classes at this school and I'm afraid I'm going to have to move him, and then put him in a special class where he won't get the same level of education. But I also know he can't go on like he is in the school where he's at. He's going to continue counseling and we are going to start him on these meds on Monday and see if they help with his outbursts, but right now I just feel really bleak about it all.

Sorry I just needed to vent to someone =(. I'm sure once I get reading and understand this a little better it will help, it just sucks knowing there is something "different" about my sweet little boy that is going to make his life more difficult when life is difficult enough.

[Ally-Mac]

so sorry to hear this Elizabeth. I understand your fear at this point - you are just faced with the diagnosis and you are still processing it. I know there is someone else that used to come on here that has a son with Asperger's. I still have her on facebook --- perhaps you can connect with her to discuss what having a child with Asperger's means.

it was Sylvia ...I can't remember her user name (her July 2010 baby is Kaylee).

[SarahBethsMommy]

I know this is so hard to hear and you are scared and angry and all kinds of emotions.

I found a movie called Loving Lampposts was extremely helpful to me in looking at my son a bit differently. Perhaps you could find that one (I found it streaming on Netflix).

Also, the book "Look Me in the Eye." That is a really good one as well.

Vent away and know you have people who will listen.

[Jule'sMomInOR]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Please don't blame yourself. I know it is hard not to but there's nothing you could have done differently. You just need to focus on what to do from here. The other ladies have given wonderful advice.

[sfarrow3]

I'm so sorry!

[starrsgirl]

Very sorry to hear this. Big hugs to you! Just take it a tiny step at a time.

[shockandawe]

Originally Posted by Jule'sMomInOR

I'm so sorry to hear that. Please don't blame yourself. I know it is hard not to but there's nothing you could have done differently. You just need to focus on what to do from here. The other ladies have given wonderful advice.

Couldn't have said this better myself. Deep breaths, and research, and all the love in your heart will help you find a way to cope with this.

[jessanddane]

I'm so sorry to hear this. Everyone here knows you are a fantastic mom and will do everything in your power to get through this....its just a small bump! Let us know ifyou need anything at all

[mommytokem]

I'm sorry, prayers as you and your family adjust to this.