[Pari_Ameenah]

........i just disapear for a while!

i don't know how to cope!..........i'm not like normal people i get hurt ALL the time and right now this whole TTC thing is just making me feel crappy!

i expect i shall pop in from time to time, even Lurck about a bit on here, but you won't hear from me for a little while, maybe just a week or so.......i don't know yet!

unfortunitly i KNOW that i need a break............as i don't get the chance to cry about this stuff, i ALWAYS have people around me 24/7, never get to be alone to just cry, and now its all caught up with me!
i shouldn't think i'll really be missed, as i don't really contribute much to this place,

i would just like to say "sorry for waisting everyone's time"..............and i REALLY hope EVERYONE here gets a by the time i get back........(when ever that is!).



i feel like i let myself down........i've turned into someone i NEVER wanted to be (my MOTHER), running away from my problems, i feel like a failure (huh.....and i can't spell). but i need to figure it out!

i don't WANT to leave, i REALLY LIKE everyone here, but i need a break.........i've become obsesed with this site!
.........obsesed with TTC.........that sounds stupid, i know!
but it hurts!

so just for now......................

"Bye everyone"

and you can ALL have my left over BABY DUST!

Lynx










(i sure could do with a friendly reply here!).............even if its just to say bye!

[KrissyJ]

Hun your not a failure!! If you are then we all are. Keep your head up and keep trying you cant get a BFP if you dont try. Maybe you should stay on the board, you'll get alot more support here than anywhere else because we are all in the same position. We can help you cope!! I really thing your about due anyways!! Keep your head up and keep trying I promise we will all be here to help you out!

[Lilah]

I am sorry you are feeling so down.

Sometimes taking a break can be a good thing but you have to really think about WHY you are needing to get away. TTC certainly takes a HUGE mental toll - and sometimes being on the boards all the time and seeing everyone around you getting BFPs can just make you feel worse. Plus, when you think about TTC all day long that can drive you crazy too.

After I had my m/c in July I took a break from the boards for a little while too. It actually was incredibly helpful for me. The ladies on JM are incredible but being on the boards all the time wasn't allowing to me think about anything BUT trying to conceive. I think I took almost a month off and then came back - but made sure not to spend TOO much time here.

But for a lot of women this can be a major support system for them (if they are lacking that outside of here) - in which case you don't want to totally cut yourself off from that type of thing.

So do whatever you feel is best for you. I truly wish you the best of luck.

[DreamChaser]

Oh hun I know the pain all too well - TTC is so frustrating - please don't feel like a failure. I wish I could say something to make you feel better, but when you've been at as long as I have, I know there really isn't anything. Just know that you are not alone - there are others facing the same struggles. If you need to take a break, go ahead, it will do you good. Just know that we are here for you.

[instant_oatmeal]

I'm so sorry that you are feeling down. Maybe taking a break is what you need? I don't want you to go but if it helps then you need to do what is right for you. You never wasted anyones time. We are all on here for a reason and posting and venting our thoughts is a huge part of the boards. You will be missed but like I said you need to do whats right for you.

[Scared]

Do what you feel is best, hun. I think we're all in the same boat. I was at two different stores in two different towns yesterday within a half hour block of time and saw newborn babies in the car seat that I'm dreaming of buying. Both moms looked like teenagers and I was INCREDIBLY jealous of them. I know what it's like to feel like TTC is being thrown into your face all the time and it making you feel hurt. I'm there too ... hell, my screenname is scared because I'm scared that it'll never happen for me!

Take a break if you need to - only you know what's best for you - we'll be here waiting with open arms when you return!

[Pari_Ameenah]

I WANT TO STAY!
your all sooooooooo nice!, BUT............i have made a POSITIVE desision!..............i'll stay here, but i won't come on quite as much as i do at the moment!
i think your all correct, i DO need you, as i have no other outlet for my feelings!.........and you guys are the only ones who truly understand!
and i sooooooooo apreciate that!

i think i understand why i'm hurting so much..........i just don't know how to deal with it!
but i guess as long as you guys are here to put up with my compaining, then i should be ok!

so i'll stay, but will try not to be sooo obsessed!............is this cool?

anyway...........THANKYOU guys!

Lyn x

p.s.- i'm gonna try and express my feelings more so that i don't hurt so much..........starting from......today!

[whitlovesoak]

hi i am new here! but i wanted to say that i think it is a good decision to stay i think that being here helps you vent your feelings! and that is a good thing. but it is good not to get obsessed with it just like you said! i feel obsessed already and i haven't been trying for as long as some. i am sorry i should be trying to make you feel better! i will listen to you! no one should feel alone. hope to talk to you soon!

[dzine21]

I'm glad you are sticking around. We're friends here...more than some ladies just ttc.

[Mandy_]

I'm glad you are sticking around. We're friends here...more than some ladies just ttc.[/b]

I really agree... although i have never seen you ladies face to face.. i feel like i know you, ya know... we are all connected with our wants to be pregnant!! I LOVE YOU ALL

[instant_oatmeal]

I'm glad you decided to stick around. Jm is such an outlet for me since I have no one in real life that I can share my struggles and feelings with. Not even dh. Its so nice to have all of you girls. I think we need each other!