[JandJC]

At the current moment, I feel non-obsessed with TTC. I screwed up tracking pretty much everything this cycle and took OPK's a few time and couldnt figure it out. I've been so stressed with work, being out of town, and distracted with thanksgiving then my vacation coming up. I've just been having sex, and praying for the best. LOL.

I did have to go to a baby shower this weekend, which was hard for me. Of course, it was also the cutest pregnant girl ever. I envied her and her adorable maternity outfit. When I left I just didnt even feel like doing anything special this cycle, it's a weird feeling because for so long I obsess every cycle. I just really dont want to get my hopes up!

thanks for letting me vent

[junie22]

I'm trying not to obsess too much this cycle as well. AF arrived the day I left for DC. Being there for a week and being distracted was a blessing. I'm back now and on CD 10.

I've been temping this cycle, but the last three days are weird. I'm coming down with a bug... sore throat/head cold. So I know my temps are going to be elevated from being sick. I want to just scrap my temps, but I know that I want to have my charts for the next doctor's appointment. So I'm going to keep up with them, but I won't be obsessing over what they mean. Being sick may be another blessing in disguise.

I'm also going to be busy with work the next couple of weeks, then Thanksgiving, and then our trip to Maui. So I'm looking forward to all of the distractions. I am going to use OPKs to pinpoint ovulation, but that's really the only thing I'm going to do.

I've made a vow not to symptom-obsess, which I didn't really do last cycle either. And I am not going to test until 14 DPO... really! I hope that the relaxation and distraction method will help. Even if it doesn't lead to pregnancy, it may help me keep my sanity a bit better.

My sister-in-law just had her baby shower yesterday. She lives far away, so I wasn't there. It made me sad, though, because her pregnancy was a major oopsie. And here I am, still trying after a loss that they will never know about. It's hard to be happy for them when they didn't even want the baby. Okay, pity party over.