[sandibeach]

DARN Facebook and its stupid pictures of all the pregnant people and their cute bellies and sonograms! I just can't take it anymore! I'm going to have to avoid fb for a while I think. I just can't even be happy for my friends and SIL and it makes me sad. So Rather than feeling guilty for not "liking" their statuses and pics I think I'll just avoid it for awhile.

I've been feeling really emotional today, and overall down lately. I found out at the end of November that I have PCOS, and had to take provera to finally end the cycle I had been having since August (the cycle my friend [who started her cycle at almost the same time] and I were both going to get preggo on, she got preg on like, cd 15 or something, I had to take provera and have my cycle finally end on Dec. 10). yeah... that was all a rambly run-on sentence but right now I don't really care.

I still have not ovulated. Last time I ovulated was in July I believe. Besides having PCOS my DH switched jobs at the end of december and we can't start insurance at the new job until April, so we have temporary private insurance until then. THe private insurance does not include maternity, so DH doesn't want to conceive until the new insurance kicks in. So now we have to have protected sex. UgH!! Its so depressing because its like if I happen to have a RARE ovulation we could miss an opportunity! I've been using OPK's to try to get a good handle on my cycle as well as charting (as per dr.'s instructions) and I've used an entire pack of 20, all negative, which ran out today. I didn't buy a new pack because their expensive and I was just too depressed about having to DTD protected anyways. BTW, for anyone who cares, this is probably , but for us protected just means withdraw, which I know isn't 100% safe, so it gives me a small shred of hope.

I think I'm just gonna go cry. Unfortunately I can't each chocolate cause the Dr. has me on this healthy no caffeine, no chocolate, low sugar, low processed food, 6 servings of fruits/veg-a-day diet which is hopefully going to help with the PCOS.

[HopeTea]

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Venting is definitely a good idea, though. There are a lot of people here on JM who are going through difficult times as well, and sometimes just having someone who understands can help. Even if only slightly. I'm in a completely different situation, but in your words of frustration I feel something I can relate to.

I hope things will get better for you soon, and that April comes fast so you can get back to TTC! Best of luck to you!

[Belita]

I can somewhat relate to the friend who we were supposed to be pregnant at the same time. A best friend of mine and I were due 2.5 weeks apart. I miscarried and she's still having a healthy pregnancy. It sucks to be happy for them while at the same time being so angry feeling like "what about me?!"

If you haven't already, check out the TTC with PCOS board. There are quite a few women here who have it and can offer support.

As for the OPKs, have you looked up the Wondfo tests on Amazon? They're pretty inexpensive. Amazon.com: wondfo ovulation tests

I'm glad you have an outlet to vent here. I've found it very cathartic to start a journal here.

I hope that when you get your insurance in April you can get a treatment that will get you knocked up!

[blueeyes25s]

It's definitely good to vent because for the most part I think we have felt pretty down about ttc when you are having a tough time conceiving. On the positive note you at least know what you are dealing with so now all you can do is follow your doctors diet instructions and hope that helps.

I also have been in the same boat with trying...I have many friends how started trying when I did, friends who started after i started, and they all have gotten pregnant. I now started crying every time someone announces it. All you can do is give yourself time to get past all pregnancies. :hugs: I hope you get your BFP soon!

[sandibeach]

Thank you guys for the support. Wow I'm feeling better just knowing there are others who understand. I'll definitely check out those OPK's on amazon

[Cait&AngelAbove]

I am so sorry that you are having to go through all of this. I had my DH change my password on fb and not tell me what it is because I just could not look at all the pregnant pictures and statuses.

[KatieKat]

Sorry you're having a rough time - just wanted to send some s your way!

[sandibeach]

So I bought some OPK's on Amazon, thanks again for the link. I am going to keep using them, and if it shows ovulation, I will have a heart to heart with DH and MAYBE he'll give and we can go for it... until then I guess I'll have to just be patient ( and possibly get my FB password changed lol)