[Christa225]

Hi I'm 25 and have been married for 4 yrs. My husband and i have veen TTC for 3 yrs. My husband and i have not used protection since we have been married andabout a year after we were married started questioning why we havent concieved. We started doing our own charting and when that wasn't working (about w yr later) we went to my ob and she sent us to a fertility specialist . We had several testing and told everything was fine so we tried some more....nothing. we then did 1 cycle of artificial insemenation and again nothing. The dr said everything was fine , my thyroid was finally under control and it still didn't work. Now 2 yrs since then I find out my left fullopian is blocked 100% with a polyps. I have a hysteroscopy and laporoscopy to remove it. Exactly one month later after my surgery and two weeks after my sister finds out she OS pg i also have a positive test :-). We were so excited.... Then 2 weeks later I have a miscarriage. It has now been 7 months and nothing.... It has been such a roller coaster with getting excited that maybe this is the month and then getting so upset when its not. so my great friend told me about JM and i have been reading all of the advise and support and thought this will definitely help. This is definitely a strong grouo of woman. I'm sorry this is so long just wasn't sure how to really get started. And i wanted to thank everyone for everything u share that makes me feel better :-)

[Belita]

It sounds like you've had a rough road for your little one. I'm sorry for all you've had to go through. I've also had a loss (I'm discovering that many women here have). JM has been fantastic and there is also a TTC after loss forum if you'd like to also join there and a TTC with medical assistance.

I hope your stay here is short and sweet and you get your sticky BFP soon!

[Christa225]

Thank you so much. It's such a different feeling reading your post because i know that I have finally opened up and you are talking to me, rather than just sneaking in on others going through this. I really appreciate your comment. None of my friends or family have had troubles so they dont really understand so i feel I kinda go through it alone. My husband is great but doesn't really understand what my mind and body r going through. Thank u again.

[Nicholle ttc]

Hi Christa and Welcome! All of the ladies here are really supportive and very knowledgeable! Please feel free to share your suggestions, concerns or just vent. I'm so sorry about your loss. I hope you get your sticky bean soon! GL!

[KatieKat]

Welcome to the board. I'm sorry you've had a rough time TTC. JM is a great place to be able to rant/complain/be happy/ask questions etc. It's nice knowing there are many other women going through similar experiences. I hope your stay here is short and sweet and you get your sticky BFP soon!

[Belita]

Christa, it is different for the men than for the women, especially if it's an earlier loss and they don't get to hear the heartbeat or feel the baby kick. A mother's love is truly different.

[Christa225]

Thank you so much ladies. I just joined and it already feels so much better. It's kind of like a comfort :-) I know I don't know what everyone is going through but I do hope everything is going as planed for you also.

[junie22]

Welcome, Christa! I'm Adrienne. I'm glad you decided to post instead of just lurking.

I'm so sorry you've had a rocky road in TTC. The group of women on this board are so strong, caring, and informative! I hope you continue to feel comfortable posting, and I sincerely hope you get your forever sticky BFP very soon!

[IndyMommyWannabe]

and !!!

I am so very very sorry you've had to deal with what you had. We all just want that feeling of our child in our arms. WE ALL will get there one day I know it.

And these ladies here - while we may not know each other in person - are seriously some of the most incredible women I have EVER "met".

Good luck on your journey!

[blueeyes25s]

Hi Christa and welcome! I'm Dawn and I'm so sorry for you loss and how hard your journey has been ttc. itto: to what all the girls have said so far. This is a great discussion board with a great group of ladies and outside this board you will have a hard time finding someone who truely understands.

I actually had a discussion with DH last night about how he just doesn't understand what I go through emotionally month after month of not conceiving and dealing with everyone around me getting pregnant. He just doesn't get it either and there is nothing in this world you can possibly compare this to, to make them understand. So don't get to upset when he just doesn't get it, because he truely does not get it and that is what we are here for .

I hope you get sticky BFP soon!

[kbpeanut]

Hi Christa, welcome!

I'm Karin, and I wanted to say I'm sorry you've had so many troubles with TTC. My husband and I have been trying for over 3 years now, and we have no physical issues of which we know. Every woman's road is different, and sometimes difficult, but the girls on here have heard me say this before, but I'll say it again...Fate has a way of sending you down it's own path. When it's meant to happen, it will, have faith in that.

Hang in there, and feel free to hang around this board. I've spend over 3 years on this board, and do NOT know what I would do with out these ladies!

[Christa225]

Thank you so much. I try to keep telling myself everything happens for a reason but sometimes its just hard. We have been charting my bbt but i am having such a hard time understanding it. It is always up and down but we dont want to go back to the Dr because if they say we r fine then we should be able to do it without assistance, right? This is my 3rd consecutive month charting so we will see. I am only on cd 8. My Dr did just prescribe me Provara to take for 10 days so hopefully that doesn't prevent anything. Thanks again for all of the advise and making me feel so welcome ladies :-)

[Belita]

Do you chart on Fertility Friend? If so, please put a link in your siggie so that we can stalk you and offer feedback if you'd like!

[Christa225]

I do , I actually just signed up when i saw it mentioned on JM. I am still trying to figure it out but as soon as I do I would love to do that and hear the feedback. Thank you

[martinchic]

Hello Christa,

My heart breaks for the things you've gone through the past 4 years. I'm so sorry!
One thing's or sure: the ladies on this board are super helpful and understanding. You can ask them anything, no question's too dumb.

I sincerely hope that you will soon get the BFP you so rightly deserve.

[Lav]

Hi Christa,

welcome to JM. I'm so sorry for your loss and what you had to go through. My journey has not been quite as stoney as yours, but I just recently had a loss myself. I m/c in Nov last year and was devastated. Now the long wait to try again (it took about 2 cycles for my uterus to clean out -- I m/c naturally). And finally actively trying again. But time can drive you crazy, especially when you've been waiting and hoping for as long as you have.

I wish you the best of luck for your sticky BFP!!

[Coley]

Christa! I'm Nikki... My DH and I sound similar to your story, without the loss. We're about to hit the 3 year TTC mark ourselves. We tried on our own, no luck. Went to the OB, no luck. Found out my right tube was blocked, had lap surgery, artificial insemination (IUI) 3 times, no luck.

On paper, there is nothing wrong with us. No medical reason for our inability to conceive... Which I think makes it all that much harder. If you see a problem, then you at least have a point of focus, ya know?

This is, indeed, a great group of girls. We all do our very best to be supportive and encouraging to each other. This is one place where you can speak openly and honestly about all of your TTC feelings and not only find yourself NOT judged, but others who have/are feeling the exact same thing.

The one thing I will add is this... Just because your DH may not be expressing "feelings" in the same way that you are, don't assume he doesn't have feelings about TTC. MY DH has always been the most amazingly supportive partner I could've ever asked for. If I have to face IF, there is no one else I would want to face it with. With that being said, I never knew exactly how much he was hurting over all of this until we were having a discussion about me attending an acquaintance's baby shower.

It really opened my eyes and made me realise that while he may not say it, he feels it just as deeply as I do...

[Christa225]

Originally Posted by Lav

Hi Christa,

welcome to JM. I'm so sorry for your loss and what you had to go through. My journey has not been quite as stoney as yours, but I just recently had a loss myself. I m/c in Nov last year and was devastated. Now the long wait to try again (it took about 2 cycles for my uterus to clean out -- I m/c naturally). And finally actively trying again. But time can drive you crazy, especially when you've been waiting and hoping for as long as you have.

I wish you the best of luck for your sticky BFP!!

I am sorry to for your loss. It is hard to come back from and then becoming comfortable to try again. I wish u all the luck and can't wait to see when you get yiur BFN.

[Christa225]

Hi Nikki, i understand the on papers they say everythig's fine. It does seem like it would almost be easier if they could find the problem and u would know what to fix. My DJ is wonderful also and last month i think was the first time he actually told me that although his body isn't going through it, it wad still a loss for him and he still feels my pain. It is so supportive and i guess I was just so consumed I didn't realize the effect it has on him. Thank u for the advice.