[IndyMommyWannabe]

and after our doc appointment, our next step is more testing. The doc sent my husband for some blood work for some chromosome testing...and if it comes back "bad" or I guess "positive" for the issue at hand - we have basically been told that we can't have biological children!!

So I'm trying not to drive myself crazy just yet as it could always come back negative, right?!

I HAVE to stay positive...and hope for a negative, right???!!!



BUT of course, there's two tests...first is the chromosome testing and 2nd is the sperm DNA testing - which, if that one has issues, the doc said THAT is "fixable" the chromosome one is not.

I asked for worst case scenario - and IF he has the chromosome issue...then our ONLY option is donor sperm or embryo adoption (if, of course, I want to be pregnant)...

OTHERWISE our ONLY other option is adoption. which, don't get me wrong, I'm all for, but danmit, I want my own!

I just don't know what to do. I know, in the past, I've casually mentioned donor sperm to him, and he's always been against it - of course, now, that it MAY be one of our only options, he may change his mind (although I highly doubt it...) of course, I'm all for embryo adoption, which he's said he's not keen on either.

I just don't know what to do anymore!!!

course, at the doc's office, I was so down and my husband looked at me and said, "I don't know why you're so down, you're not the 'broken' one" and I told him "no matter what, we are in this together, whether it's one or both of us - it's both of us, regardless."

Please, I don't ask for this a lot - but if you are all spiritual/relgious in any way, please pray for us that the blood test comes back negative for the chromosome issue and that we CAN have biological children!!!!

I just don't know what to do.



I just need more

[Cait&AngelAbove]

When will you get the results back? I am praying for a negative!!!

[IndyMommyWannabe]

not sure. sometime next week is all i know.

[Coley]

I can only imagine the range of emotions you're going through right now.

Please know that we are all here for you and that I will promise to keep you in my prayers!

[IndyMommyWannabe]

AND...this morning we woke up at 4:30 a.m. to my husband's brother calling him to tell us that their uncle had been killed in a motor cycle accident last night.

My husband is NOT one to show emotions - but after that news yesterday and now this?????

let's just say the emotions in this house suck today.

[blueeyes25s]

I will pray that his results come back negative. I am so sorry and I will also keep you and your DH family in my prayers. I lost my uncle unexpectedly almost a month ago and it sucked and is not an easy thing to be dealing with.

What is embryo adoption?

I completely understand the 'wanting to be pregnant' and have your own child.

[IndyMommyWannabe]

Embryo adoption is where we can "adopt" an embryo that has been fertilized by another couple (so it's both donor egg and sperm) during their IVF cycle and carry it to term like it's our own pregnancy...

http://adoptembryos.org/

[blueeyes25s]

Ok. I truly hope DH tests comes back negative so you don't have to explore other options but embryo adoption would still give you the opportunity to be pregnant. I know the DNA of the baby would not be yours and DH but I believe in the end you will not even care once you are once you are holding that baby. I know you said your DH is not interested in this but if it came down to it, he may surprise you and again I am PRAYING it won't.

Just hang in there. Anytime you need to vent chat we are all here . You should really consider starting a journal, I find that has been helping with the stress.

[IndyMommyWannabe]

I have one! it's a blog - but it's "anonymous"...lol

but if everyone's interested - it's Bread or Baby

I haven't posted about this yet, although I will soon...

[Coley]

Wow. You guys are really in the thick of it right now, aren't you? I am so terribly sorry for your DH's loss.

I know your DH hasn't been keen on these other options in the past, but you may be surprised to find his opinion changes if, God forbid, they are the only ones available to you.

I will keep praying that you won't have to cross that bridge...

[KatieKat]

Wow Keri-Ann, I'm so sorry about all this. I'm thinking of you and DH and sending all the good thoughts I can your way.

[Belita]

I'm so sorry you're going through all this. It just isn't fair! I hope and pray that he does not have the chromosomal issue so you can have biological children. I can respect why people try so hard to have biological children before adopting.

[Nicholle ttc]

I'm so sorry Kerri-Ann! My T&Ps are with you. Please continue to KUP!