[plan4fate]

I started bleeding tonight, and am cramping painfully. I knew when my tests didn't get darker today that it wasn't going to stick. I'm hurting, DH is lost... we are taking a cycle "off" (meaning I cant chart or opk cause of vacation) so I will probably be quiet until we get back.


I was 100% sure I was not going to be saying this this cycle... but yesterday am AF had not yet arrived, so I figured I'd poas to get her started..

And got this.



So I got a FRER and saw this: (don't go blind, you wont find the line)



And then later this:




This morning, the lines weren't darker. I was sad.


So I went and got one of these:


And took another one of these:




And for your viewing pleasure, inverted:


My camera appears to have issues picking up lines... it's annoying the heck out of me since these are at minimum 2x darker in person. Even DH can see them!


My EDD could have two options. By LMP it's April 5th. By Ovulation it's March 29th. So I'm going to be joining both DDCS as soon as I get a positive FRER.

My only guess on why the tests are light, I'm not able to hold it all that long. I've been having some tummy distress from the second round of antibiotics and 3 hours seems to be the max.

[Capeladybug]

Eeeeeeks CONGRATS!!!!!!

[KatieKat]

I see them!!!! Congrats .

[Sapphera]

I totally see them!!

[IndyMommyWannabe]

ooooooh look at those lines!

[Nicholle ttc]

OMG!!! So happy for you!!!!

[Jen@FirsAve]

Congratulations!!

[temmons0703]

Congrats!!! My daughter was born on April 5th so it's a really good day!!

[Cait&AngelAbove]

Congratulations!

[Missa_Mae]

I just saw your update, I'm so sorry. Everything happens for a reason they say, although I'm sure it's hard to think like that right now ...

[plan4fate]

It is.. but that was the first thing I said to DH.

We knew we had a slim chance of it sticking because of the infection I have and the abx.. coupled with my thyroid disorder. But we got pregnant on our own which we were doubting we could do.. so I look forward to future cycles.

[JennyLee]

Sorry Ashley Sounds like you have a pretty good attitude - I will look forward to your future cycles as well!

[IndyMommyWannabe]

I agree with Jenny. it sucks but it sounds like you have a good attitude...I can't remember and I'm curious...do you know what the cause of your m/c are?

[plan4fate]

Kinda.

1-2 were chemicals, I was on bcp and missed a pill or two.

3- 9weeks ID twin boys, Trisomy 8 complete. Their father had the incomplete version, but didn't know. It's not supposed to be hireditary... but he's also lost a little girl to the same thing.

4-6 chemicals. Was on nuva ring.. it didn't work.. but thinned my lining to where it was pretty much Red ewcm for 3 days.

7- 8weeks. little girl. was on nuva ring.. but amusingly enough, we'd been using condoms and had one break. lol. Not enough lining to sustain pregnancy.

8- 8w ID twin girls. small placenta, one measuring ahead, one measuring behind (but since there were only one window for conception we knew when it happened). I slipped and fell during an ice storm, messed up my knee and started bleeding that night. I hadn't missed an af, but had enough bleeding at 4w that I didn't think that I was pregnant.

I've managed to have the tissues tested each time. I don't know what tests have been run on me, I know some were done in 2008, but not all my lab work is in my records (digital records weren't included in my package when I moved). I would assume my doctor would have mentioned something if she found something was wrong.

I'm going to see if I can get an appointment with her when I go home. We will be Post Ovulation by then, but I'm hoping she can run at least some basic blood work, make sure that other than being over weight and my thryoid out of whack there isn't something else underlying.

My aunt had m/c's due to endo, another due to a genetic disorder (tay sachs).. I'm the only one to have them over and over with semi varied reasons.

[Jen@FirsAve]

i'm so sorry ashley, i hope your break helps you and DH

[kbpeanut]

I'm so sorry Ashley. I know this is rough, but at least you have the reassurance that you CAN get pregnant. I hope this break does you well, and you come back refreshed and ready to TTC again! x

[Nicholle ttc]

I'm so sorry Ashley.

[blueeyes25s]

I'm sorry Ashley

[IndyMommyWannabe]

hopefully they can find something that'll explain then that way they can treat you correctly.

[plan4fate]

Well seeing a dr is out. We are not going to Canada. I'm devastated. I lost a baby and my trip home in 48 hours. I'm less than pleased with the state of Ohio and their unemployment system. DH worked himself sick in their state and they're giving us the run around. It will now be another year before I get to see my family.