[LindsLuvsSi]

So how do you think it went?? Good? bad?

Thanks for the good vibes and everything........

But.....

unforunately..........


The appt. was MAJOR bust!!!!!!!! AGAIN. What the heck man? We just don't get this. Why in the world can't we get help to get pregnant?? Why?!? I have a bad bad feeling it's a sign that we're never going to get pregnant or have a baby. And it hurts soooooo badly, the thing we want most we may not be able to have.

My appt was at 1:45 right. Got there at 1:40. Well....we waited and waited and waited. Called back at 2:40. Grrrrrrrrr. The doc came in at 3 o clock. I cannot believe this nonsense. That's just ridiclous. Poor DH may get fired now. He was allowed 1.5 hour lunch break (usually gets an hour) but since an appt, he got an extra 30 minutes to come with me.

The doc, told us stuff we already knew about how to get pregnant and asked 35463984 questions. Grrr. She said she wouldn't give me Clomid or fertility meds. She wanted to get my med. records from the RE first. She was SHOCKED that we hated the RE. She's like he's the best here. I don't get it. I asked about progesterone supplements too, and she's all that's not necessary. Progesterone is bad, is had bad side effects and there's no point. (what?!?! you have to have a normal good level to sustain a pregnancy....)She talked about being on some injection, but then was like it's 1000 dollars a shot, so that's out of the question (no insurance can't afford it.) She then did a full exam, even while I was on AF. grrrr.

The only good news is though, she thinks/feels that cyst did burst and is gone. She didn't feel it. She said I have a tipped uterus and a large pelvis which is good for my small size and to carry a baby. No signs/symptoms of endometriosis. She then mentioned getting an HSG done later. And then if that's clear give me Clomid. But then she switched her mind after she realized an HSG without insurance would be expensive and she's like you could try Clomid for 6 months and if no luck then get the HSG. Finally getting somewhere. That's all I wanted. But she wouldn't give it to me this cycle. And not until a pelvic ultrasound, till she gets my medical records and DH may need to do another S/A. Then she mentioned we may need to do an IUI, after doing a Post Coital test. Think this would obviously be different cycles, which would most likely be cycle 19. Nooooooooo my dream and my goal is to get pregnant before/by cycle 20. This def. means no 2008 baby for us and probably a March 2009 baby

I'm calling the other RE tomorrow. To try to get in for an u/s on Wednesday when he's in my city. To verify that the cyst is gone, if so he'll give me Femara and progesterone. So hoping for better luck there. When I call tomorrow and hopefully be seen Wednesday. If the RE won't give me the Femara and won't help, then we'll see the new doc (ironically named, "Dr. Barran") and get the other ultrasound and hopefully a prescription for the Clomid and be on our way to a BFP. (I would so love twins. I want them. That would be a def. blessing. So I'm hoping that maybe we'll be blessed with two for the price of one at the end!

I feel so bad, cause now DH will be working till midnight bcause of my stupid appt and the stupid dr. taking so long. I'm so bummed.
I'm really disappointed yet again. I thought 3rd times a charm right? Well not exactly. I mean we did get some good news. But not what we wanted. (I don't get how others go to their docs and get Clomid like that.....what's ya'lls secret? We need a boost and I think some fertility drugs will helps us get our BFP that we have dreamed annd tried so long for.) I am trying to stay positive. Depression won't help. Everything better come back clear and work out for hte best. we want to be expecting already. We want our long,, hard TTC journey to end. 18 cycles is been enough and stuff. I mean I'm not giving up, but I just wish it was easier and didn't take so long. Ya know? I know eventually we'll be blessed with a beautiful child that we will love unconditionally and do anything for. We're doing anything to get that child we'll love.

Please continue to send good/positive thoughts/vibes our way. We could use the extra prayers and baby dust. Hoping for good/better news either tomorrow when I call the old RE to schedule an u/s and good news from that OR if that's bad news that the new doc will jsut give me a presciption and we'll get our BFP next cycle. Please send us a miracle. but more importantly some good and better news. We need good news regarding our TTC journey. It's been nothing but bad news since August. No help, just being treated like we're dumb, a waste of time and money at docs and tons of heartache.

[mrsapexpredator]

I am sorry that it was not great! I don't understand why she can't just give you a script for Clomid and be done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So the new doc needs your records and an ultrasound and then she will write you clomid> Can you request you records from the RE and take them personally over there and then get you u/s done by that time they should have reviewed you records and can write you a script at that time?

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Jen. I wish that too, I don't get it. I filled out a medical records release form that I think they are going to fax to the RE. But the only opening they had for an u/s is next Wednesday. Too late to start the Clomid! So that most likely means we're out another cycle, trying of course but I'm guessing no miracle will happen, hasn't yet during these 18 cycles. I'm hoping for a miracle tomorrow when I call the RE that I can get in for an u/s on Wednesday the cyst will be gone and he'll give me the Femara and that I can start it this cycle. Keeping fingers crossed. So I'm hoping that at least by next cycle we'll have a prescription for some fertility drug and we'll be hopefully one step closer to getting a BFP!

[xanada101]

Ugh I'm sorry Lindsey! I wish I could offer some advice.... our TTC journeys are so different at this point that I'm afraid that you know more than I do! I think Dr's that are that late to appts are offensive. Seriously. Do they not have any respect for their patients? I hope this other RE will help you! I will pray that your situation turns around too! Try to keep your chin up. Like you said... it's important to try to stay positive (even though I know it's super hard right now), but just do your best! Play with your new little puppy! Let us know if there's anything we can do for you!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Toni! It is so frustrating, especially when you have a time limit and have to wait forever, it is rude and ridiclous, DH is soooooo P/O'ed, I feel so bad for him.

All that you ladies could do for me, is to continue to be sweet, encouraging, positive like you always are. Your support and positivity goes a long way! I appreciate it when you all cheer me up and check on me and everything. It means a lot to me and I love ya'll!! (I think that being a co-host here is def. helping me with our TTC journey. I haven't been depressed and upset like before....and this new lil pup is totally an antidepressant!! (his name is like OD hahaha I'm Ottie'ing! ) Trying not to think about the bad, but the good, but it was jsut frustrating at first, I thought we'd get some good news but at least she seems to try to want to help more than the old RE. Anxious to see what happens.

[Mum2three]

Oh crap! i didnt think that your appointment would end up like this! I was really praying that you found a better doctor. sometimes they think that a young couple can do it on their own, and not really put 2 and 2 together and see that there is a problem. i wish that these doctors now a days where different. they just think that having a PHD under their belt makes them smart. to be smart you must run tests!
I wish you had a dr like mine, if i didnt have the money to pay for the stuff he wouldnt give me the bill. I really was hoping that you would of came back saying she gave you clomid. And Sweetie keep your goals. Theres nothing wrong in having goals and wanting to fulfill them. I know that some people never put the emotions into reason. Most doctors think that your young and theres NO such thing as having a fertility problem. But u know hun, i would of told them where to go and how far to shove it.

Everyone deserves to have a baby to watch grow into the person you want them to be. To play with that child and send them off to school.

you deserve that Lindsey. you really do. And i know that complications can put you backwards. but its weither or not you allow it to beat you! I know you can pull through and just think ok its taken this long to have a child, but im learning so much about myself and when i have the chance to get pregnant i can tell others my story and let them see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You can do it.

dont let it beat you and dont fall in to depression. thats what this fertility stuff is doing to you. and its not right Sweetie. We are all here for you to lean on. no matter what it is.

So Sweetie, you can BEAT this!! you can!!!!
your always in my prayers. And i hope that you dont go past 20 cycles.

If you want fly to Canada and we have Dr's that will just hand anything over to you...LOL

Good old Canada!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Canada and UKs health care systems rocks. Thanks Brandy. (I basically asked for Clomid and progesterone, but she really didn't say yes. Then later when she mentioned the HSG or try Clomid for 6 months, I said let's try the Clomid. but she wants to do tests first. if everything comes back normal and she won't give me the Clomid I don't know what to do.) But like I mentioned, I'm hoping that we'll make our dreams come true and we'll make our 3rd goal! I'm praying soooooo hard cause this is what we want!! Soo badly!! I'm trying not to think negatively at all. (If I start thinking/talking negatively snap me out of it!!!!! Cause I know and believe and your story especially gives me hope that it can happen to matter what and if you are motivated and determined and think positively!!

Canada and UKs health care systems rocks. Thanks Brandy. (I basically asked for Clomid and progesterone, but she really didn't say yes. Then later when she mentioned the HSG or try Clomid for 6 months, I said let's try the Clomid. but she wants to do tests first. if everything comes back normal and she won't give me the Clomid I don't know what to do.) But like I mentioned, I'm hoping that we'll make our dreams come true and we'll make our 3rd goal! I'm praying soooooo hard cause this is what we want!! Soo badly!! I'm trying not to think negatively at all. (If I start thinking/talking negatively snap me out of it!!!!! Cause I know and believe and your story especially gives me hope that it can happen to matter what and if you are motivated and determined and think positively!!

[snsgirl336]

Oh Lindsey, I'm sorry that todays appointment didn't go as well as you had hoped. I was really praying that this new Dr would have just the answers to get you that BFP you deserve. It seems like she is far more proactive than the others have been, right? That's something positive. Like Brandy said, don't give up on your goals. You will have a baby and you will be a wonderful mother! Keep up with the positive thinking. I'm so glad you have your puppy to be with you and help cheer you up.

You know where to find me if you need anything at all. I'm here for you!!! Sending you lots of

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Cris! She def. seems more poractive that's for sure. I just hope this next cycle is it! Trying to stay positive, it's not easy but i know it'll be worth it.

Ottie has def. been keeping me busy and happy and awake. He woke me up at 3:30 and I'm sooo tired, but he's sooooo awake so I can't nap yet hoping to tired him out soon to get at least a 30 minute nap. He's not only being a good antidepressant but a great practice tool for a future baby! He's def. like a baby, small, cute, cuddly, whiny, playful, funny, needing something.

[Celry]

Sorry to hear the outcome wasn't what you wanted. Hopefully you can get into the ultrasound with the RE this week.

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Cel.

[Jlynn]

I can't beileve it took her an hour and a half just to get into the room with you. I would have been so mad. I am sorry things didn't turn out like you hoped. At least you found someone who is willing to help you out once she gets everything in order. You know i will be praying for you. I hope everything falls into place fast and that you get your March 2009 baby!!

[~April04~]

I'm sorry that the doc took forever to get in... thats horrible.. some docs man.. I hope you get good news on Wed and can get started on the way to your BFP.. you have a lot of people pulling for ya

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks ladies

[Brenda04]

I'm sorry you appointment didn't go as you wanted and I just can't believe the Dr. would be so late they really have no respect for their patients. I hope you get some answers soon and that you can get one step closer to the thing you want the most. I really hope you can find some comfort in this board and that your puppy helps you make your days a little brighter

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thank you Brenda

[ShannonMVT]

I'm sorry your appointment didn't go well. A few thoughts:

1. If you get natural progesterone it doesn't really have bad side effects. I mean, as far as hurting the baby it has no bad side effects, but it WILL give you pregnancy symptoms. What I would do for the progesterone is when you DO get your BFP, get your dr to check your progesterone level and if it's low or borderline, ask her for the progesterone supplements.

2. If you do go on Clomid, it somehow helps your progesterone levels. I know people who have taken Clomid just for that reason, to help their progesterone.

3. So if all your tests come back normal, they won't give you the Clomid?! Well, what they heck do they expect you to do, nothing?!

I hope all you have to do is get that ultrasound, get those results faxed over and hop onto the Clomid train!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Shannon.

I've used natural progesterone cream 4 cycles and it has helped extended my LP. But I've heard it's not as strong as the real supplements. When we do get a BFP that's what I plan on doing asking for a blood pregnancy test to check levels and to check progesterone.

I've also heard that about Clomid too, hoping that happens.

I have no clue what the issue/problem is. Grrr.

Anxious for calling the old RE tomorrow and hoping to get in for an u/s and that the cyst indeed is gone and he'll give me the Femara and progesterone supplements. If the cyst is still there, going back next Wednesday for an u/s with the new doc and hopefully she'll give me the clomid.

awww Linds I am sorry. I hope things work out with the RE and everything and you guys can get the ball rolling

[banksamee]

I'm just lurking cuz I miss all you ladies since you left TTC #1. Lindsey, I am SO sorry! You so deserve to be preggo by now! I hope you'll get that clomid at your next appt!