[LindsLuvsSi]

After talking with DH last night, I think we decide actually to not call and see the RE. We're still a lil upset he wouldn't help, so if I go for an u/s and the cyst is there the RE will still not help and I'll be bummed and disappointed. I feel that there's really no point to get my hopes up again. And I really don't feel like seeing him, another doc again with our long stressful appt yesterday. We need a break from appts. In 8 days is my other u/s with the new doc, who seems to be more proactive than the RE. I mean she didn't just mention trying fertility drugs but also IUIs. The RE didn't mention that.

I hope we're makin the right decision. It kinda feels right to me. I mean why should we go back to the RE who wouldn't help us. I guess it's true you get what you pay for, but in his case what you don't pay for. (He didn't charge us office visit fees but he didn't help us. I'd rather pay the fees and get help and get pregnant sooner instead of wasting time. DH feels the same. We just want answers/help to get pregnant already. it's been to long)

In the back of my mind though, I keep thinking the what ifs. What if I did go see the RE and the cyst is gone, I'd get the drugs and may be able to start this cycle, since tomorrow is CD5, but not 100% on that. So there would be a possible chance to conceive this cycle, which I want, but yet I don't want the stress of the other possible what if the cyst is still there.

I need some reassuring that this new plan of just sticking with the new doc, getting the u/s next Wednesday and hopefully be given fertility meds, makes sense and sounds good. Unless you think I should go back to the RE (who didn't help us). I'm just a lil confused/torn, because thinking of the what ifs. I hate second guessing myself sometimes.

[lissy8]

You should go to the new doc. I like his plan of an IUI also. Many times i feel like giving up but in my heart I cant and I know you cant and you will be a mom. We just have to try a little bit harder.

[snsgirl336]

Hey Lindsey- I think that you need to do what you and your DH feel is the best course of action for you. Only you guys know how you felt after each appointment and with each doctor. I know it's hard not to, but playing the what if game can only drive you crazy. Do what you feel is right in your heart and trust that it's the right thing for you guys.

I hope that whatever you decide gets you one step closer to your BFP! Go play with your puppy and try not to over stress over it all... Lots of

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Lissy! That is so true, not give up but try harder, I like that! Ok that's my new motto!

And thanks Cris. You're so right. Well I'm off to give him his first bath! (Taking a video for DH to see, maybe I'll post it) This lil guy has kept me on my toes!!

Only you two know what is right for you. Good luck with your decision.

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks

[LindsLuvsSi]

UPDATE:
After talking to DH more....and listening to my second guessing myself, I called the RE and made an appt for an u/s tomorrow. If we get good news we get good news. If not, we have a fall back plan for another u/s next week. Hopefully we'll get fertility meds maybe this cycle but probably next. Time go by quicker. Let us get good news and get pregnant already.

[Mum2three]

Lindsey its completely up to you and DH at this point. I personally wouldnt go and see the RE, cause if he didnt help me before, how or will he help us again. Dont put what ifs in the way of your decision. sometimes the what ifs are the cause of all the pain. Do what you think is best! I know you will find out soon enough.

Good luck sweetie!

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

Lindsey, I say do what you and dh feel is right. I would want to know right away, too. I hope the u/s tomorrow shows the cyst gone and you can get on the fertility meds to get a sticky BFP. KUP I will be praying for you!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks Brandy. (we understand why the RE wouldn't help us, because of the cyst. Femara makes cysts bigger and he didn't want to cause problems. Others on the TTCWMA board told me the same thing, the RE is looking out for us, even though we felt he wasn't helping.) I'm glad I bit the bullet and just made an u/s appt with the RE for tomorrow, not expecting good news don't want to get my hopes up. if the u/s shows the cyst is still there then next week we'll go for the other u/s and hoping the new doc will give me clomid for the next cycle. if the u/s tomorrow shows no cyst the RE will give me Femara. not sure if it'd be this cycle or next cause of CDs. So i'm pretty certain we'll get some fertility med. hopefully next cycle. Anxious to see what tomorrow brings.

Thanks Michelle! We appreciate it

[Hopingfor1soon]

Wow Linds,
I am excited for you to get a plan into action...and hopefully that is EXACTLY what these next two US bring you....I know what you mean by being frustrated with it all...but just think, things seem to be getting put into place for you now!!! Id say that should give you some new hope and as always we will all keep you in our prayers!!! Good Luck tomorrow!!!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thank you Alicia~

[ShannonMVT]

As much as it sucks to have had to wait, it does sound like the RE was trying to do what is best for you. Hopefully that cyst is long gone and now you can get your meds! Btw, do you know if there is an advantage to taking Femara over Clomid? I've heard they are similar. Just curious.

[Brenda04]

Good Luck Lindsay I hope your cyst is gone and that you can get some meds to help you out you will be in my T&P

[LindsLuvsSi]

Thanks ladies

Clomid and Femara are both similar, due the same thing, aide with ovulation. Clomid has more side effects, thins your endometrium and makes your CM thin/hostile. Femara doesn't seem to do that. There are many who say Femara increased birth defects, but that's not true. Many ladies were on Clomid with no luck for like 5 cycles, then switched to Femara and got pregnant. My RE doesn't like Clomid, hence why he's prescribing Femara. Hoping to get an all clear u/s tomorrow.