[jeanbean]

Well girls, I've been lurking around for the past week, but not really posting. I'm completely heartbroken.....again. I was so excited this month when I o'd on CD 15....the earliest o date in the past year. I thought, boy, this is going to be it. The stars are aligning. We had good BD timing and everything.....then, my temp starts to drop, and today.....stupid spotting. The start of AF. It's just not fair. I'm so sick over it. I can't help but wonder, when is it my turn?

I did spend some time tonight talking with my aunt, who had unexplained infertility. I cried alot and it made me feel a little better, but I still feel so empty inside and broken. I want so badly to give my wonderful, devoted, loving husband a child.

I have my doctor's appointment on Friday....I hope he has a good plan. I really need some good news at this point, or at least a feasible plan.

Sometimes I just struggle to find the words to describe how I feel inside. Not many people understand and that makes it even more difficult.

Sorry for the vent, but thanks for listening.

[snsgirl336]

Awww, I'm sorry you're down... Sending you lots of and hoping that tomorrow will be a better day for you!

[LindsLuvsSi]

Sorry your down Pam. Sorry she showed. Good luck at the appt Fri, hope you get some answers!

[jeanbean]

Awww, I'm sorry you're down... Sending you lots of and hoping that tomorrow will be a better day for you![/b]

Thanks Cris......I hope tomorrow is a better day too.

Sorry your down Pam. Sorry she showed. Good luck at the appt Fri, hope you get some answers![/b]

Thanks Lindsey. For some reason this month has been really hard. Probably because I allowed myself to get back on that rollercoaster again believing we were going to get a miracle

[~April04~]

I'm sorry hun... I hope you get some answers at the doc.

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm so sorry! I hope you get some answers at the dr Friday. We all know how you feel. You can vent to us anytime

[Mum2three]

Awww, its never easy. I know that for a fact. i always wondered when it is my turn. everyone is getting BFP and im not. what is wrong with me.

But u know hun, it will happen. and hopefully soon!! You are a solider and you can over come it. You have us to help you get through it.

Vent all you want. thats what we are here for, is to lean on others for support.

I really hope that the stars line up for you.

HUGS!!!!!

*hugs* sorry chickie.

[jeanbean]

Thanks girls.....your support means the world to me. It's so hard talking about this stuff to other people cause they just don't get it.

[ShannonMVT]

I'm so sorry. It's hard when you really think it may have finally happened and it doesn't.

I hope your dr appointment helps you find some answers.

[Lauren S]

I'm so sorry! The months that you have perfect timing definitely hurt the most. Good luck at your appointment Friday!

[jeanbean]

Thanks girls....the support has helped so much. I'm starting to feel better about things today. I think my hormones really got to me the other day.....go figure