[sethsgirl]

Today seems like it's been a rollercoaster of emotions for me. I saw pregnant women everywhere I looked! I'm 7 dpo today and on cycle day 20 of anywhere from 24-28 day cycles. I have had this feeling for the last 4 or so days that I am pregnant, I've never been pregnant before but I just have this feeling. The cramps are still coming and going and so are the headaches...the one thing different this cycle from the last 6 of TTC are that my BBs don't hurt, sometimes they feel a little fuller than other times but they don't hurt (well a few times today I've had this achy feeling around the outsides near my underarms) and every other cycle they've been so sore by this time that if I rub against something I want to cry. Anyways back to emotions, I heard a song on the radio that I hear pretty much everyday and I just broke down, then 5 mins later I was laughing, then I was angry, and I just felt like I was going up and down and all in between all day. DH is on duty days this weekend and has been at work since 6am and won't be back either until tomorrow night or sometime on Monday, don't get to talk to him or vent to him so I've turned to you ladies (sorry). My b-day is tomorrow and I get to spend it alone since I don't know anyone here and my family is on the West Coast and DH will be at work still I guess i've made myself believe that I am pregnant and I started thinking that if I'm not then I will be so disappointed and upset...I know I won't get a positive tomorrow but I'm still testing since it's my b-day, and it won't make me upset because I know its too early, but if AF shows next week then the disappointment will set in. I'm trying to stay positive and relax but sometimes it's hard because when you're out going to the store or the gas station you see pregnant women walking around or people with babies, when you're at home you see comercials on TV about HPTs or pregnant stuff, and my cousin's wife is pregnant, and I truely am happy for them but sometimes I feel like saying what about us, when is it going to be our turn....anyways sorry for the long vent ladies, than you for all of your support, I don't know what I would do without you ladies!!!

[Carmela]

I know how you feel. I could sit here and name at least 10 friends and family who are currently pregnant, and probably 5-6 more that just had babies in the last year. I have started getting my hopes up again that this cycle might be it. Every "pregnancy symptom" I am having I had had during the 2WW on previous cycles, so I try not to read too much into them, but it is hard. DH has his hopes way up this time too for some reason. Maybe that all means this one is really it. Who knows.

You are a brave woman testing, pretty much expecting a BFN on your birthday. I just couldn't do it. I hate seeing the BFN, and I have only seen 7 of them since I started trying over a year ago. They are just too hard to see for me, I would rather AF just come.

Good Luck with testing even though it is so early.

[Brenda04]

I'm sorry you feel like this, It's so hard not to be feel discouraged at times I really hope you get a BFP

[LindsLuvsSi]

I'm sorry Colleen. I know how you feel. (I actually kinda feel like this is THE cycle for us too, and I don't even think I've O'd yet, not certain) Hang in there. sorry you're alone. especially for your bday. Happy early Bday~!!

[Mum2three]

Awww Sweetie

I was the same way when i didnt think i was pregnant with Makenna. I thought it would never happen. And when i seen others that were pregnant i was crying and upset you name it. you will not be celebrating your birthday alone. We are here for you. I will make you a cake and eat a piece for you.. LOL.

Cheer up girl, we are all here when your down. and when your down the rest of us are to.
We are here for you when ever you need a shoulder to cry on.

Usually when your mind and your heart say your pregnant you are.
I really hope that your ttc journey is over and you show us a BFP.
There hasnt been one since i said i got a BFP.

Keep that chin up and just think you may be getting more for a present tomorrow...

[sethsgirl]

Thanks ladies! You guys are awesome! I of course started crying again when I read your replies...gotta love hormonal changes!

[ShannonMVT]

I'm trying to stay positive and relax but sometimes it's hard because when you're out going to the store or the gas station you see pregnant women walking around or people with babies, when you're at home you see comercials on TV about HPTs or pregnant stuff, and my cousin's wife is pregnant, and I truely am happy for them but sometimes I feel like saying what about us, when is it going to be our turn[/b]

This is pretty much how I feel. I try to stay positive but then I just keep seeing all these people who are pregnant and thinking about it and worrying about when/if that will ever be me.

I really hope this is your month and get a nice BFP for your birthday...whether it's tomorrow or a nice belated Bday gift.