This is a short post from my TTC Blog, Entitled, "Our Roller Coaster Ride to Parenthood"-- so completely true, and last night I was in a spiral.

It's now after 12 midnight and FF still says CD 28. Maybe this morning's test was wrong, but with the way I'm feeling I doubt it.

I had a little breakdown a while ago, and Mike said, "We'll get pregnant when God thinks we're ready".. Irrationally, I said, "Then why bother trying? I guess I'll be the next Mary." He said, "If we don't try, then there is NO chance."

I'm a little discouraged right now, but still no AF. I guess I'm on Cycle 7, but looking at my charts, I think it's cycle 8. We started TTC last November, it's June now, so that would be 8 cycles.. IDK[/b]

I was up and down and feeling bad about not being pregnant.... I feel like I'm doing something WRONG. My sister is currently being blessed with her 3rd child, and we can't manage to get pregnant beyond a chemical. I was crying, and DH was trying to calm me down, but I just needed to sit and lay in bed and stare at the wall... I was so worked up it turned into an anxiety attack and I had to take a Xanax.

How do you ladies deal with these feelings?

[SavaAngel]

I am no help, there have been discussions in this house just like that. AJ was an unexpected miracle and I am just trying to trust that God will give us another. It is hard for sure. Everyone tells me I have had one - I will undoubtedly be able to have another, but I was not prepared for it to take this long (and we have been trying since January). So I know what you are going through - even the blow outs with DH - I just don't have a solution yet.

[*becky*]

Oh hon...I'm so sorry ((((hugs))))

I think we all have good moments and bad moments. TTC is a rollercoaster, especially when the journey has been long.

For me, I try to take it one day at a time. I try to remind myself of the other blessings in my life and look at the grand picture. I keep my faith and pray that God has mercy and gives me patience to wait out his plan.

[snsgirl336]

I just want to send you lots and lots of

[Celry]

Sorry hun *hugs*

I think we all have our up and down days. I'm always really optimistic before I O and then super pessimistic after I O. I was having a really low day yesterday. I was convinced that we'll never get pregnant. I'm in the 2ww of my 15th month I think this 2ww has been the worse so far. I was fine at first, but after 6 months I started to get down. Since we hit the year mark, I've been extremely moody about it. I had my first round of Clomid this month and it has me all emotional. I pretty much never cry about anything, but was all upset about the stupidest things the past week or so. I was close to tears many times. Hang in there. Hopefully you'll be optimistic again soon.

Usually when I'm having a really down moment, I reasonably talk about it with DH, trying not to beat the subject to death. He's very supportive, but is a guy and most of them don't want to discuss the same thing over and over. I also try to do something to keep me busy and my mind off of things. Last night I ran errands and went for a walk. Keeping myself active helps a lot. If I sit and watch tv or do something else like that, that doesn't keep my mind active, I would drive myself insane on my bad days.

[mom 2 haley & tyler]

I'm so sorry you're have a hard time. I had lots of them. I hope you'll get a BFP soon!

[Jlynn]

I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I think you are dealing with it the best way you can. It's good to cry and let it all out. I know i always feel better after i cry my eyes out.
Good luck this cycle

[~April04~]

I'm sorry you're feeling so down.. I can totally relate.. *hugs*

[jeanbean]

I know we have all felt that way at one time or another. For me, certain months are better than others, I'm not sure why though. I hope everything works out, and if you ever need to talk feel free to PM me.

[Chatterbox]

[ShannonMVT]

I'm sorry.

What I do...it ranges from crying, just letting myself feel angry for a bit, talking to others about it, or trying to keep busy and distract myself by doing other things.