update on me

jennifer_reif · #1 July 14th, 2008, 05:27 AM

Well, AF showed up last night, so it is on to cycle 8 for me. I am really taking it hard today. I really feel like time is running out for me. I need to come to terms with the very real possibility that we will not have another child. On top of trying to deal with that, I am just feeling soooo very alone in my grief. DH would like another child, but he is also 100% content with the way things are right now. He just can't understand my longing.

I can't talk to anyone around me about TTC. EVERYONE (including DH) tells me to relax, enjoy the kids I DO have and "It is all part of God's plan" etc. While all of that may be true, I still feel the loss, pain and grief and nobody wants to hear about it. I know you ladies understand, but sometimes there is nothing like someone to hold your hand or give you a hug.

*becky* · #2 July 14th, 2008, 07:22 AM

Jen...I wish I could reach thru my computer and give you a big hug! I know how you feel. AF showed on Friday for me and I'm also onto cycle #8. I don't have any words to make it all better, but I do want you to know that it doesn't matter how many kids you already have - the desire to have another is still the same and no one should invalidate your feelings.

Vent away as much as you needs...there are lots of shoulders here to cry on.

(((hugs)))

Lo_and_Behold · #3 July 14th, 2008, 09:15 AM

((((hugs)))) I'm sorry AF showed & that you're going through a difficult time.

In 10 months of ttc, we haven't been able to conceive & we're still on our first, but I would imagine the despair is all the same. I know what you mean about dh & others not understanding. I get the same spiel & it's very frustrating to hear. That's not the point! I guess no one can really understand except the woman since it's her body & mind going through it month after month.

Just remember you always have us & can vent away!