Another one joining

AJD1021 · #1 September 13th, 2008, 09:09 AM

I hope you all don't mind if I join you. I've reached the 6 month mark of actively TTC.

Some background. I went off of BC last Sept. We were OTL from about Sept-March, and had maybe 4 cycles where I had a change of being pregnant. In April, I found out I was pregnant and then m/c a week later. From April to August, I had AO cycles. I finally Oed in August on CD 26, which I wasn't expecting, so we missed our chance. I Oed this past cycle, and I thought we timed BDing perfectly. But I'm awaiting AF as I got a BFN this morning and a huge temp drop on my chart.

I feel like I'm in a weird place right now. Am I having infertility problems since I've been off of BC for a year and only a m/c to show for it? Have we just been timing BDing wrong? I don't know where I belong.

I'm feeling very bitter towards the girls that get pregnant so easily and stay pregnant. How is it so easy for them, and not me?

I thought TTC would be a wonderful, exciting time in my life and my marriage. Instead, its just stressful, frustrating, and depressing.

How do you girls deal with everything? I'm really struggling right now.

#2 September 13th, 2008, 09:18 AM

I'm very sorry for the BFN! I'm Michelle, DH is Mike, and we've been TTC since 11/07. All of the feelings you have, I've felt, and still feel sometimes.

This is a great group of ladies!

~April04~ · #3 September 13th, 2008, 09:53 AM

Welcome, I'm April (21) married to Jeff (22). We're on Month 10 of TTC #1

Jessica C · #4 September 13th, 2008, 10:44 AM

I'm Jessica (41) and DH is Paul (38) and we're on month/cycle 8 of TTC#1. I'm sorry about the BFN, I've been there lots of times. We all hear where you're coming from and we are all here for you to vent to, lean on, and share joy and sorrow with. These ladies are wonderful and amazing. Good Luck this next cycle!

snsgirl336 · #5 September 13th, 2008, 01:38 PM

Welcome! I'm Cris married to Shawn and we've been trying since August 2007. I hope your stay here is shoer... Everyone here is wonderful and I know you've come to the right place for support!

xanada101 · #6 September 13th, 2008, 02:18 PM

I'm really sorry about the BFN... I hate those stick, but I can't seem to stop my addiction to them. SOMEDAY I will see that other stinkin line! One of the things I like about this board, is everyone has some idea of what you're going through. TTC is such an emotional rollercoaster ESPECIALLY when you have been trying for so long. For me, I just do my best to keep busy and do the things that I love. I used to restrict my activities and such because I was TTC... but then I realized that I wasn't enjoying life and I wasn't getting PG. Soooo I stop putting restriction on my activites and the things that I ate.... and while I am still frusturated and stressed at times, it's not nearly as bad as it was.

I'm really glad you decided to join us, these are a great group of ladies. Good Luck!

Hopingfor1soon · #7 September 13th, 2008, 04:26 PM

Hi and Welcome!! I am Alicia (22) and DH is Mike (22). We have been TTC#1 for 16months now. YIKES!! We are on our first cycle of Follisitm and will be doing an IUI as well. I completely know how you feel. I get those same feeling all the time. But I will say the ladies here are great! If you ever need anything dont be afraid to ask!

Oh and also I am the co-host of this board with Lynda...so if you ever need anything just send us a PM!! I cant wait to get to know you better!

~*Jackie*~ · #8 September 14th, 2008, 09:59 AM

Hi & welcome! I'm Jackie (almost 27), DH is Jon (28) and we've been TTC since Dec. 07. I, too, stopped my BCP over a year ago, but my cycles never did get back to normal... they may have been like this before I started BCP, but that was 9+ years ago, so I don't remember.

I'm sorry about your BFN, but hopefully you'll get that second line asap!!

Frangipani · #9 September 14th, 2008, 04:09 PM

Hi there AJD! I can totally relate. We've been trying over a year and have just the one m/c to show for it as well. It is definitely frustrating. I understand how you feel about being bitter with people who get so easily pg and stay pg. I wish I had some answers but all I can say is that a lot of us are in the same boat and can commiserate with you. If you just want to vent some days, go for it!

I agree with Xanada. I did the same thing-I was really restricting my life, especially in the TWW. I think it was just causing me to be too stressed out, in the end when I got *another* BFN. Now, I'm trying to just enjoy doing the things that I do, be healthy, and go with it.

Good luck. I hope your stay here isn't too long!