forcasted: some waiting for me too

spanisheyes06 · #1 October 21st, 2008, 08:59 AM

so, im in a little bit of waiting myself. waitin to O. since this is the first time ive had normal cycles in about 3 years, im hoping that all it takes was getting that back on track. we have been trying so hard before but it all seems so aimlessly since we had no real idea when i would be Oing. it was all big guesses and predictions. but now i feel so good about this time coming up. i so do not want to be disappointed, so i try to think positive. i just keep thinking about when i finally look down and see that BFP. i told my husband that i will probably be so excited and relieved when it happens that i will either spontaneouly combust or pass out on the floor. maybe a mixture of the 2 lol. sorry if im blabing but this is the only place that i feel like i can express myself. im the only person i know who is ttc so theres no one for me to talk to other than my husband. and i dont wanna talk to my pg friends becuase they have enough to deal with already! its just so hard to describe when i think about it. i can feel my heart rate speed up and my heart flutter and all this energy rushes thru me like i have to run some marathon and *poof* there will be my BFP.. but then reality sets in and i realize that its really a waiting game and i can run as much as i want but its not gunna make me any more pg.

*sigh*

anyways, thanks for listening whoever reads this one..

~Ashley

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snsgirl336 · #2 October 21st, 2008, 09:18 AM

I think it's exciting to think about the possibilities when it comes to TTC! Keep up that positive attitude and I hope that you'll be seeing that BFP before you know it!