I am SO upset.

I didn't have a good feeling this month, mainly because I had no symptoms whatsoever.
SIGH.
I started spotting this morning, which is pretty much clockwork for me---every month, I spot at 13dpo and AF arrives later in the day or by the next day at the latest.
I was sooooo depressed to see the spotting this morning, so I just went ahead and took a digital test. I said I wasn';t going to, but since I was sure it would be neg, I really just wanted to get it over with so I can call the RE's office and schedule my HSG for next week.
I really just feel so sad and let down. I cried at the BFN and it's been months since I've cried....
I HATE digital tests....seeing the words NOT PREGNANT really, really hurt.
On to cycle number 10.