[mrsapexpredator]

I was just thinking about you. I had my IUI on Monday. Did you trigger with your's? Was this a medicated cycle?

[snsgirl336]

Oh Jen! You beat me to this post! LOL.... How are you doing with your IUI? I know it's early, but I hope this is it for you!

April- Let us know how everything went! I hope it was easy and without complications!!! I can't wait to hear from you!

[SavaAngel]

[~April04~]

Hey ladies.. thanks for thinking of me.. I've been bummed all day long...

Jen.. I took Clomid 50mg from CD 5-9... produced 5 follicles... 3 that were mature.. I triggered Tuesday night and had the IUI this morning..

I'm just going to copy and paste what I typed on TTC W/ MFI.. because it's easier and I'm still bummed out..



I was so optimistic this cycle.. I responded really well to the Clomid.. produced 5 follicles.. 3 that were completely mature. I should have known that something bad would happen, our luck really is horrible.

We get to my RE's office, Jeff gives his sample and we go shopping, I pick up a HPT thinking that I'll need it in 2 weeks, hoping it'll be positive. We go back to the RE's office, get in the room all ready to do the IUI, just to find out that Jeff's count POST-wash was only 357,000. She asked if we still wanted to do it, I really didn't want to, I didn't see the point in doing it. Jeff insisted that we go ahead anyway, because it's only $200. So we did it, layed down for the required 10 mins and I cried.

It's really not fair.. Jeff's first and second SA were bad, his third SA was a lot better, so we thought everything was getting better. His blood work was perfect, his urologist appointment went perfect, there's nothing wrong with him.. Why does his SA keep going up and down?

I'm having a really hard time, it's just not fair.. We're both young.. can provide for a family.. are planning this baby.. want this baby.. have everything going for us.. But we can't get pregnant..

I'm feeling a bit resentful to be honest. There's nothing wrong with me. I ovulate, my blood work is fine, I'm healthy. I've gotten pregnant before. I'm obviously fertile and "normal". Why does Jeff have to be infertile? Why do we have to deal with all of this?. It's so hard.


I should also add that I know it's normal to be resentful.. and I know it only takes one.. I know Jeff would be supportive of me if the roles were reversed.. I'm always supportive of him.. I just took it really hard today because I was so optimistic and wasn't expecting that low of a count.. I cried in the middle of my appt. and I never cry in front of anyone but Jeff...

[Bakin8th]

A friend of mine did a IUI and 50 mg clomid BECAUSE her dh had really low sperm.

She had 3 mature eggs and this is the honest truth...She now has 1 yr old triplets. I dont know her dh sperm count at the time of IUI but its was a super long shot so you just never know.

We tease her now and say well we know he had at least 3 sperms

Good luck!!!

[~*Jackie*~]

I'm just a PM away, April...

[snsgirl336]

Oh April... I'm sorry it didn't go as well as you had hoped. I wish this were easier for all of us who are ready, and longing for a baby. I wish there is something that I can say to make you feel better. Try not to give up completely on this cycle... you never know!

[Jessica C]

April! I'm sorry you feel the way you do. Hang in there! You never know....one of those 357,000 could reach one of those eggs you produced and who knows, maybe more than one of those guys reached a couple of yours!

[TTCagain]

(((HUGS)))

I'm sorry his count wasn't what you were expecting/hoping for.

But everyone is right---it only takes 1 little swimmer, and since you did IUI, they were given a GREAT headstart! You never know, maybe one of them reached the eggie!

Think positive!

I think your range of emotions, BTW, is TOTALLY normal. It's not wrong of you to feel frustrated or resentful-I think that is a very natural feeling and you just kind of have to "ride it out" and wait till the feeling passes.

I have been feeling really jealous of women with babies, lately, even women I am friends with. There's a mom at my DD's school who I really like and see pretty often on a social level---and she is due in December and I have been feeling REALLY irritable and angry when I see her cute, round belly lately! ARGGGHHH. I don't *like* feeling that way, but......we can't help how we feel, I guess. "This too shall pass."

BFP vibes headed your way!

[Ash]

I am praying for you April.