Oh no Lynda! I'm so sorry!!!

I agree that your chart is still looking too good to count yourself out just yet! I know what you mean when you say you feel numb and just can't cry or get upset about things. I started spotting today with a nice temp drop and as hard as I tried, I just couldn't find any emotion about it... All I could think of is, "I'm going to be starting cycle number 18 anyday and that sucks".
Hang in there... I still have plenty of hope for you!