[~Lynda~]

Hi ladies. I'm on CD3 and AF has been really really bad!!! i've been trying to stay busy. I have decided to take a break from my Clomid. I don't like taking drugs and i have decided that i will not use it this cycle. I'm hoping for a Christmas miracle!!!! I hope you all have been doing good. Thanksgiving is so close now. It's going to be a BIT hard knowing i'm not pregnant. but i have a lot to be thankful for!!!! I've had a hard time with this failed cycle...

yesterday i was watching a television show and there was a family with 13 children. well 4 of those children (who are grown now) came on this show to tell of their horrific life of abuse by their parents. Physical beatings, being locked in the basement, not being fed at times, bathing once a month, babies sitting in dirty diapers for days, eating butter sandwiches, watching their sibblings get beaten, and much much more horrific stuff to awful to mention... it's really hit me hard. i just sat there and cried, like i've not cried in a long time. it has me wondering how God works... We are loving parents and there are so many others out there like us, trying so desperately to have a baby. but God blesses this "satin" woman with 13 children in which she abuses the He** out of. how does that make sense???? i wish i could make sense of it, cause i can't stop thinking about it....

sorry to be such a poop, i'll be better soon!!! HUGS

[Joannedw]

I'm glad I didn't see that show....when I see things like that I just can't get it out of my head. It will consume me for days . I just don't understand things like that. I feel bad if I loose it enough to spank my son .
I am on progesterone this cycle and am supposed to test in a couple of days but I definitly don't think this is my month. Next month I am supposed to start clomid & estogen or clomid and IUI. So maybe we will both get a X-mas miracle

[Bakin8th]

I am so sorry about that witch finding you

I am so glad I never seen that show I am just blown away how parents can treat there kids like..However I shouldnt be as I was abused and ended up in foster care as my birth mom popped out more kids..Sigh..I have to admit that I too ponder the question ..WHY?!?!

When so many loveing couple's want and would love thier kids We either cant get pg or we end up burying/cremating our still borns.

[snsgirl336]

I'm sorry that AF is being a Witch for you this cycle. I'm sorry that she came at all... I'm also sorry that there are people in this world who will treat children the way they showed in the show. That is just terrible and it breaks my heart.

I hope that you'll have a nice relaxed cycle this time around and you'll be able to get a beautiful Christmas BFP!

[richmond_girl]

I agree - I've stopped trying to understand God's plan. Too many things don't make sense. I'm learning to accept that's just the way it is and one day we'll know why.

I'm glad you are back!! We missed ya

[SavaAngel]

I am glad you are back too! Sorry AF is being so rough. I hope she leaves quickly so you can get on to getting that Christmas miracle.

[TTCagain]

:dothugs:

I'm sorry the old hag showed.

I hope the holiday season keeps your mind on other things...and here's to hoping you get a Christmas BFP!

[Faithgirl]

Hey Lynda, I posted below but now I knwo why your haven't responded, never feel like God blesses these people, he gave us free will and obvisouy this woman doens't know god or how to be a parent,i knwo I think about it too and I have arealtionship with god too, why why why!

Hope your get that BFP for christmas, we are stil trying to, month 8, sigh!

Missed ya, glad to be back!