[Phoenix Rising]

and I dont WANT to feel stressed. All month long I have been feeling soooo relaxed and had the "who gives a dang" attitude and I want it back. My chart is still looking good and I am not obsessing anywhere NEAR the way that I have in the past but I dont want to obsess at all if I can help it know what I mean?

Breasts are still not hurting - had some VERY mild nausea the last three mornings and then off and on today when I smelled things... nothing in particular just smells in general. Not even enough to feel sick, just enough to feel little icky.

I really need to convince myself that chances are so slim that we got pregnant this month simply because we have been TTC for so long with not even a HINT of a baby simply for my own sanity - I hope that makes sense.

Just writing this makes me feel a little more relaxed somehow. I may take a few days off from the boards (yea right ) so that I can concentrate on things OTHER than TTC. I dunno. I just dont want to go through the whole BFN thing again this month.

I will be seeing the dr. re some clomid next cycle of this one doesnt result in a pregnancy. I dont know how much longer I can do this.... three years has been more than long enough and I need to make a decision one way or another you know? I have even thought about going onto the pill for a few months just to relax and not think about things.

Sorry I am rambling... this is the only place that anyone understands me.

[TwoSweetGirls]

I know where you are coming from. I do fine the first half of the month, but the 2nd half of the month the only thing I can think about is ttc, if I am pg, every little thing! You are right, only the people here understand us! I can't give any advice as what you should do, because I don't really know if there is anything....

Hang in there!