[Hopingfor1soon]

Hey ladies!!

I am 100% officially back and frustrated as heck! I just hate this! After 19mos. of TTC with no luck I now find it next to impossible to be happy for anyone that find out they are pregnant. Last night we were hanging out with some friends and I found out that they are expecting thier first. I was truly happy for them, but all I kept thinking about was how unfair it was! I know its horrible to think that way, but thats how I felt. Dont get me wrong, they are great people and I love them to death, but they dont always make the best decisions! She is even still smoking @ 12 weeks pregnant! Ugh! I tried to act happy, but I know that some of my jealousy had to have shown. I just want to break down and cry! Plus it didnt help that I am pretty sure that this month is a bust. I was scheduled to O on Saturday. But I think I may have Friday, I didnt use OPKs or temp this cycle cause we were/are crazy busy, anyways the only BDing we got in was Friday morning and then last night. I had some really light spotting yesterday afternoon which really confused me, since its way too early for implantation...has anyone ever had any spotting around O time?

Anyways, sorry for my rant I just had to let it all out!! You girls are so great! I dont know what I would do without you!

[SavaAngel]

Glad to have you back! I have heard that you can have O spotting. Not sure where, but I did hear it.

[purduegrad2005]

I was like that at first. I actually wrote down and counted how many people I knew that had gotten pregnant in the last 12 months...I counted over 13!! That is very depressing. But I've come to realize that God has a plan and it's bigger than me. He has my best interest at heart. Plus, I have the chance to learn more and more and some day I'm going to be able to help someone else out who is going through the same things. God hasn't told me that I can't have kids, but He hasn't told me that I can either. Whatever He decides I will deal with because He has always provided for me in the past and I have more than I could ever ask for it - even if that doesn't include children of my own.

Just my 2 cents and something to think about.

i had spotting 3 days before O. If that helps...

[KDD]

I dreamed last night that my friend was pg and due in July. I'm actually afraid to e-mail her and ask in case it's true! Not that I wouldn't be happy for her but I sometimes find it tough to hear. Plus, it may freak her out!

[Hopingfor1soon]

Thanks ladies!!

[snsgirl336]

It's good to have you back Alicia! I'm sorry that you're having a rough time about your friend's pregnancy. I think we've all been there!

I have also heard of O spotting... Don't count yourself out yet... you still got some BDing in and you never know what might happen!

[richmond_girl]

I have spotted when I o'd and my OBGYN said it was perfectly normal.

[Hopingfor1soon]

Thanks ladies!! I think it hit me so hard simply because I havent known anyone IRL that got pregnant while we were trying in a VERY long time!! But I am better now!

[drewbears]

((((HUGS))))) sweetie!

I totally understand! I Think we have all BTDT!

I have had a few cycles where I had spot when I oed!