Update on 1st follie scan and mock IVF transfer

richmond_girl · #1 February 4th, 2009, 06:09 PM

Beware, ladies - my bad news streak continues

I had my first follie scan this morning since starting my "stims" on Sat. My RE was very disappointed in my progress

Seriously - can anything else go wrong??? I am so friggin tired of running into roadblock after roadblock - not just on this cycle but throughout our entire TTC journey

I know, I am whining and I should feel very fortunate that we can even do IVF. But I'm just so tired of everything being so, so hard.

Now that I've gotten that out of my system, here's my update. After 4 days of stimming on a VERY high dosage, I've only produced 8-10 follies and none are close to being mature. My RE said for my age/size he expected much more. Plus my lining was very thin

My RE didn't increase my dosage but said I need to come back on Saturday for more bloodwork and another ultrasound.

We also did my mock transfer today. On top of my poor Follistim response, my RE noticed my uterus is so tipped that he practically has to cut at a 90 degree angle to transfer my eggs back into the right place. When he was doing the mock transfer, I had to literally push down on my uterus as hard as I could to try and straighten it out for the catheter. I thought I was going to die, it hurt so much. And I'm sorry but I have very little faith in a process that requires the patient to physically try and shift her reproductive organs in order for it to work

I just feel like a broken freak right now...grrr. And I feel like I let my DH down. After everything we've been through with his MFI, we just took it for granted that everything on my end would be a "given". Apparently not.

Sigh. Another long day.

snsgirl336 · #2 February 4th, 2009, 06:44 PM

Oh wow Juli... It sounds like things are really not going your way lately! I'm so so sorry!!! I really don't know what to say other than we are all here for you always. I wish these hugs could be in person, but here they are anyway...

~April04~ · #3 February 4th, 2009, 07:52 PM

o Juli, that sucks so much. I'm sorry hun.. you deserve some good news,

drewbears · #4 February 5th, 2009, 03:59 AM

Oh sweetie! Im so sorry!!!! I wished I could say something to make you feel better. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!

~Lynda~ · #5 February 5th, 2009, 05:17 AM

oh juli, i wish i could change this and make it better for you. i keep thinking if i pray harder, it will help. i'm still going to pray hard girl. i'm so sorry about the pain you are enduring both physically and mentally!!! I truly believe there is something wonderful waiting for you at the end of this road!!! i feel it in my heart!!!

i too, will offer many hugs along this journey!!!! i am here for you, if you need me!!! HUGS

Christine-MA · #6 February 5th, 2009, 05:25 AM

I'm so sorry Juli, you've gone through too much to not have something go your way soon!

~*Jackie*~ · #7 February 5th, 2009, 07:44 AM

I'm so sorry, Juli. Ugh- I'm praying hard for you that you receive GREAT news...

SavaAngel · #8 February 5th, 2009, 09:41 AM

I am so sorry Juli. I am hoping and praying with all my might that all the disappointments and hurdles you have had to endure will bring you your much deserved BFP!

richmond_girl · #9 February 5th, 2009, 04:23 PM

Thank you so much. I hope Saturday brings better news. If not, well, I'll get through. I'll let you all know how it goes.

carmz87 · #10 February 5th, 2009, 09:43 PM

i am so sorry to here that hope things get better for you soon

Celry · #11 February 6th, 2009, 08:17 AM

I'm sorry you're going through all this. I wish it could be easy for everyone. Don't let the tilted uterus worry you too much. I know it's a hassle, but it shouldn't affect your carrying a child. My mom, sister and I all have a very tilted uterus. I know many other people with this as well. Hopefully you'll develop some good eggs by tomorrow and be able to move ahead.

richmond_girl · #12 February 6th, 2009, 07:42 PM

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I'm sorry you're going through all this. I wish it could be easy for everyone. Don't let the tilted uterus worry you too much. I know it's a hassle, but it shouldn't affect your carrying a child. My mom, sister and I all have a very tilted uterus. I know many other people with this as well. Hopefully you'll develop some good eggs by tomorrow and be able to move ahead.[/b]

Thanks. My u/s is at 11am tomorrow. I'll update y'all as soon as I can.

snsgirl336 · #13 February 6th, 2009, 08:52 PM

Good luck Juli... I'll be thinking of you tomorrow!

KDD · #14 February 6th, 2009, 08:54 PM

I'm sorry things didn't go very well. I hope that everything goes really well tomorrow!

~*Jackie*~ · #15 February 7th, 2009, 08:57 AM

Good luck today!! I hope you come back to us with good results!!

richmond_girl · #16 February 7th, 2009, 09:38 AM

I am back from my appt...

So, after everything we've been through, today went pretty well all things considered. It wasn't GREAT but it wasn't as devastating as every other bit of news we've gotten since October, at least. The good news is, my left ovary appears to have made good progress in the past few days. I switched to the 'mega' needles on Wed night (instead of the baby ones they had given me) because those are twice as long and I figured it might help if I injected the medicine deeper into my stomach. I have no idea if that worked, but I have several pretty good looking follicles now on that side. The bad news is, the right ovary is still moving at a snail's pace

. We might not get anything good out of that side for this cycle; we just have to wait and see if it improves over the weekend. My bloodwork came back high for estrogen which means that despite my sub-optimal response, I could be borderline "hyperstimulating" and we need to be careful about pushing for more progress.

My uterine lining did get thicker, it's at 6.9mm now and the RE wants it to be 7-10 before egg aspiration, so we're getting close (On Wed it was only 5.1mm). I jokingly asked my RE if my uterus might have also miraculously "untipped" itself between Wed and today; he smiled and replied unfortunately no. But he said it will be fine, and just reminded me to take my Valium before the transfer procedure

I have another ultrasound / blood work at 8am on Monday, and depending on how things look, we'll probably "trigger'" sometime between Monday and Wed night. So, barring more unforseen circumstances, I should have my egg retrieval by next weekend and if the eggs/sperm fertilize, we'll do the transfer 3-5 days later.

I'm disappointed my right ovary is lagging, but at the end of the day I'm just thankful that this cycle is not getting cancelled. I will take any small victory I can and savor it because I know it could be so much worse. For now I'm just grateful for this tiny little chance, this tiny sliver of hope, to keep fighting this battle.