I'm not usually one of those people who begrudge a pregnant woman. I love babies and pregnant people and babyshowers. I have no problem participating in these events, or supporting my friends because I KNOW I will be there one day.
That being said, last night my little sister's best friend told me she's 7 weeks pregnant. She's 18, still living at home and she has no job. Her 27 year old ex-boyfriend dumped her 4 weeks ago. He already has 2 children that he doesn't take care of.
I was so angry. Not at her, at the situation. I can't understand how these things happen. Why has it been so difficult for me and dh to concieve? We've done everything the 'right' way. Good jobs, nice house, strong relationship, and still nothing works!
I'm better today, last night was just a moment of weakness on my part. I don't usually wallow in self pity like that. I know that every baby is a blessing, no matter what the circumstances are. I couldn't even talk about how mad I was with anyone because they just wouldn't get it, so I decided to visit my JM friends.