broke down today

uvagal4 · #1 March 19th, 2009, 11:52 AM

Hi Ladies.
I went to my doctor appointment today- I had a hysteroscopy a month ago and this was supposed to be a checkup. The hysteroscopy was to remove a uterine polyp, but it turns out that the polyp was really a septate uterus, so the doctor left it in and told me to keep trying for 6-8 months. Anyway, I was late getting there (work, traffic, plus every single other time I have had to wait for at least 30 minutes, so I figured I would get there before my name was called anyway). The doctor was just leaving, said that she had waited but now had to leave for a conference across town and to reschedule for next week. She was super nice about it and I totally understand, but I broke down when I got home.
It is just is all too much lately. Everyone I know (literally) in real life is either having a baby or just got pregnant. Seriously, i know six women who are having/had a baby Feb/March/April, and another three who have just announced that they are expecting. Plus, my husband's family will not stop with the questions about what the hell is wrong with me, and his sister is having a baby next week. Plus I have been working 10 hours days and our apartment is a mess (renovations). Honestly, at this point I would like to put off TTC for another two years (for professional reasons- need to pass a law exam in two years, so it would be best not to have a baby now, plus our apartment is a disaster). But I am 29 now and 5 years ago my sister's doctor said we should start TTC right away (I donate some eggs to her, I guess they weren't great quality). We have been trying now since June.
Sigh. I just wanted to see the doctor today and tell her to give me something, anything NOW. I can't just keep trying for another 6 months before starting further investigations. I thought that once I got the polyp out it would all be better.
Megan

Ash · #2 March 19th, 2009, 12:01 PM

Megan! I am so sorry that you are so frustrated. I think we have all definitely been there at one time or another. Good Luck at your next appointment. I hope you stick around with us.

BTW...I am Ashley (31) and DH is Nathan (31). We are currently on our 15th month since beginning this journey and our 4th Clomid cycle. I hope you get the answers that you need so that you can get that BFP.

Christine-MA · #3 March 19th, 2009, 12:13 PM

I'm sorry you're having a bad time

I think I'm going to break down tonight/tomorrow when AF shows. It's such a hard thing to have to go through.

Kristin&JasonTTC · #4 March 19th, 2009, 12:18 PM

I'm sorry Megan, I know how hard it is to go through this month after month. I hope you get some help next week at your appt.

~*Jackie*~ · #5 March 19th, 2009, 12:30 PM

We are all entitled to have our breakdowns (my most recent was only 2 days ago). It's a terribly hard process for some of us, and it doesn't help when we can't get answers NOW when we need/want them. I hope next week brings you some answers, and you can always count on us to be able to relate to how you're feeling.

I don't remember seeing you around, so I'll do the introduction.

I'm Jackie (27), DH is Jon (28) and we're in our 16th month of ttc our first. After 4 unsuccessful Clomid cycles, a normal s/a, and an hsg, we are on a medical break for a cycle so we can get some more testing done next cycle.

Jarheadwed · #6 March 19th, 2009, 08:53 PM

I know how you feel. I read a stat that America is in a baby boom and I felt barren.

Hopingfor1soon · #7 March 19th, 2009, 09:26 PM

I am so sorry hun!!! <<<<HUGS>>>>

SavaAngel · #8 March 20th, 2009, 06:48 AM

I am so sorry.

Soape · #9 March 20th, 2009, 08:18 AM

I'm sorry that you are having to go through this. I agree with the others when they said that we all have our break downs. TTC is not an easy journey for some...allow yourself to have those emotions. I pray that the next appointment goes well and that they will be proactive

~Lynda~ · #10 March 20th, 2009, 09:08 AM

i'm very sorry girl!!! we have all been there. i'm still there waiting to ttc is killing me. hopefully you can get in right away with a new appointment!!! i hope you feel better hun!!! HUGS

OregonGirl75 · #11 March 20th, 2009, 12:04 PM

I'm sorry! I'm on the same boat as you...feeling pressure hearing relatives/friends expecting and the question from my husband's family asking about getting PG because we're getting old. Each time like that I just hate myself!

adam*s_mami · #12 March 20th, 2009, 12:19 PM

I am sorry Megan we all have these moments, just know that you are not alone, we are all here to support each other!

snsgirl336 · #13 March 20th, 2009, 02:31 PM

I'm so sorry Megan! Like the others have already said, we have all been there, so lean on us! We'll all get through this, I'm sure! Just think of how much you'll appreciate every little thing about your baby that other's might not because you had to fight so hard to get your baby! It will be so worth it in the end! Gees... I just wish this wasn't so difficult for all of us!

uvagal4 · #14 March 30th, 2009, 01:21 PM

Hi Ladies.
Thanks again for all of your support.
I have been off and on the forum since June. Sometimes it is really slow to load, so that discourages me from logging on.
Anyway, thanks.

hearts.0nfire · #15 March 30th, 2009, 03:47 PM

i'm sorry megan. i hope things get better soon.

KDD · #16 March 30th, 2009, 05:02 PM

Hi Megan,

I'm so sorry you have to go through all this. And you're right, I think that everyone is having a baby around me too!

I don't think we've met either - I'm Kimberley and DH is Jason.