An update on me!!! x posted

A*LOT*OF*HOPE · #1 March 29th, 2009, 12:16 PM

Sorry I am not posting as much as I used to!! I will try to do better!! I am still reading the post though!! As for me, this cycle was a bust!! I was on 2.5mg of Femara and it did nothing at all !! I talked to my DR last week and he said he would double my dose of meds and have me take them CD 3-7 instead of 5-9 so i hope that works for me!!! I am very optimistic for next cycle for some reason!! I am trying to not think about TTC to much, therefor, JM gets the brunt of that!!! I wish I was stronger than that though, and just know, I still love you girls, and read your posts daily, im just having trouble being positive!! Can someone come to Washington and slap some sence into me!! April marks one year since I have been off BC, and I truly thought I would be pregnant be now!! I remember last year on my birthday(April 6th) thinking "next year I will be pregnant or have a baby"

I guess life really doesn't go as planned does it?? Anywyas, thanks for reading and joining my pity party..LOL!!!

~*Jackie*~ · #2 March 29th, 2009, 02:08 PM

I'm so sorry that the meds didn't work this cycle.

I can completely understand trying to take ttc out of every single thought of the day--- so much easier than said. I've tried to step back from JM, but the ladies are just so awesome that I can't keep away.

I hope that your optimism for next cycle is for good reason!

Soape · #3 March 29th, 2009, 02:17 PM

I'm sorry things have been so hard for you. I think that each of us go through those moments where we thought for sure we would have already been mother's. I hope that your day is coming soon.

KDD · #4 March 29th, 2009, 02:39 PM

Thanks for checking in. I usually take a JM break when AF shows each month.

Christine-MA · #5 March 29th, 2009, 03:55 PM

Sorry you're having a rough time. I definitely agree life doesn't go as planned.

ASH_M · #6 March 29th, 2009, 05:29 PM

Ugh, I know. I too went off BC pills in April and thought the same thing you did as well. It's tough.

Ash · #7 March 29th, 2009, 05:56 PM

Ash, so sorry that the meds didn't work. I think all of us understand your need to take a step back, I certainly feel that way right now as well. I wish you the best of luck, and hope that we ALL get our BFPs very soon!

snsgirl336 · #8 March 29th, 2009, 08:00 PM

I'm sorry that you're having a rough time with things right now. I hope that your good thoughts about this cycle prove true and you get your BFP. I think we can all relate to needing to step back every now and again, so no worries!

~Lynda~ · #9 March 30th, 2009, 05:34 AM

big big hugs girl!!! don't EVER apologize for doing what you need to do for YOU!!! it's gotta be that way. we all understand totally!!! we've been there, we've experienced it. that is why coming here when you are able helps!!! we love you too and we want to enjoy your bfp post with you!!!! it will come girl. you have to find some way to pick yourself up. i know it's hard. i'm still waiting for AF from my m/c and she's no where in sight! still getting pos pregnancy tests. it's so discouraging sometimes. it's because we live our lives in 2 week increments. if someone told me, ok you're going to have 2 m/c's and then you'll get pregnant in july with a healthy child, well at first that would be hard to deal with, but at least you'd know what was coming. it's the uncertainty of it all, that eats away at us.

just tell yourself, this is going to happen and i'll do whatever it takes to help it happen!! then try to get busy doing something else. take up a new hobby that requires learning something. but don't be negative. negative thoughts don't do us any good.

they say the stress of AF coming every month is the equivalent stress of a death in the family. that is pretty huge!!! if i can help in any way, please let me!!!

HUGS

Hopingfor1soon · #10 March 30th, 2009, 11:09 AM

I am so sorry things have been super hard for you lately...I think hitting the 1 year mark for me was the hardest part of everything (Im worried about the 2 year mark in June)...but I completely understand trying to take a step back and not worry so much! We are all here for you when you need us! I hope that the upped dose of Femara does the trick and you will pg before you know it!!

*Mrs.J.2011* · #11 March 30th, 2009, 11:57 AM

I'm sorry Morgan. I was hoping to be pregnant by my birthday in Feb so I feel exactly what you are going through.

SavaAngel · #12 March 30th, 2009, 12:30 PM

We definately understand. Take the time you need - it is hard for all of us and we each need to handle it whatever way is best of us. I hope your new plan and opitism works for you.

Happy Early Birthday too - that is my sister's birthday too!

We definately understand. Take the time you need - it is hard for all of us and we each need to handle it whatever way is best of us. I hope your new plan and opitism works for you.

Happy Early Birthday too - that is my sister's birthday too!

**Jenn** · #13 March 30th, 2009, 05:13 PM

I'm so sorry things are not working out for you right now Morgan but I really think something will work for you soon! I know what you mean about things not going according to plans, it just makes the hurt that much worse. I too have been needing some time away from JM because I just can't deal with it right now. Last cycle really messed me up and I'm still upset about it, not to mention this is the longest AF I've had in years! I really thought I'd be at least pregnant again during my 30th year but 31 is fast approaching (June) with no BFP in sight so I'm getting discouraged myself. I really hope you get your BFP soon!