Yet another cycle ends with a BFN.

~*Jackie*~ · #1 April 18th, 2009, 08:36 AM

Title says it all... I decided to test because I've felt SO GOOD about this cycle.. I haven't (yet) gotten my pre-AF headache that usually starts around this time (faithfully every cycle) so I went for it. BFN as usual. I already broke down this morning with DH.. is this ever going to happen? It has me questioning why God is making us wait... I just don't get it.

Oh well- that is all. Now I have to miss MORE time from work (after missing a day and a half for the funeral this week) to go to Pittsburgh to have my CD 3 b/w and u/s done next week. Our appointment with my RE is May 27th, which is when we'll go over my results (assuming he doesn't call with any problems beforehand), and schedule the lap.

Of course, that means even more time off of work- and nothing to show for it. I am SO grumpy today.

snsgirl336 · #2 April 18th, 2009, 08:42 AM

Oh Jackie, I'm so so sorry! This is just not fair anymore... I know there is nothing that I can say that will make you feel better, so I'll just send you some well deserved hugs

~*Jackie*~ · #3 April 18th, 2009, 08:43 AM

Thanks, Cris. The hugs are what I need. I'm just whining to get it out of my system.

snsgirl336 · #4 April 18th, 2009, 08:47 AM

It's better to get it out, so whine away... we all understand!

~April04~ · #5 April 18th, 2009, 08:47 AM

**hugs** I'm sorry Jackie, it really sucks

SavaAngel · #6 April 18th, 2009, 09:33 AM

I am so sorry Jackie. It sucks and is even worse when we are feeling really good about a particular cycle. Big HUGS to you! And whine away! We know how it feels too!

**Jenn** · #7 April 18th, 2009, 10:24 AM

I'm so sorry! Big *hugs* to you. It really sucks big fat monkey balls!

richmond_girl · #8 April 18th, 2009, 11:32 AM

Jackie, I am so, so, so sorry. Please don't give up hope. I know in my heart that a turn of events is just around the corner for you. HUGS sweetie!!

~*Jackie*~ · #9 April 18th, 2009, 01:38 PM

Thank you so much for the hugs and being just so great. I seriously don't know what I'd do without you all..

I spoke too soon about the headache. If I had waited just 12 hours, I would have gotten my headache and I wouldn't have wasted a test (although it was only a $store test). Jon and I sat down earlier and we're trying to schedule everything out and it stinks how much work we have to miss to get to the RE's office.. I have to go down next week, he's going to go down the first week of May for his detailed S/A thing (the schedule is all wacky for that), and then we both have to go down on May 27th. Plus we were REALLY hoping to do a nice "one last just the two of us" vacation this summer for our 5 year wedding anniversary coming up in October. With all these appts and surgery and blah, we can't plan anything.

Ok, I promise I'm done whining for now. I guess it's just pms and extreme frustration with my body.

Soape · #10 April 18th, 2009, 01:42 PM

I'm truly sorry. Please keep hope, I know that it can be challenging.I pray that you and Jon can find time for a little get away. Can you go anywhere for the weekend just to have a little break?

~*Jackie*~ · #11 April 18th, 2009, 01:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Soape

I'm truly sorry. Please keep hope, I know that it can be challenging.I pray that you and Jon can find time for a little get away. Can you go anywhere for the weekend just to have a little break?

Thanks, Amanda... we have so many projects inside and out, along with getting our grass cut and all of that stuff that a weekend getaway is just out of the question right now. It's a nice thought though. There's seriously nothing that close to us to just go spend a night or two somewhere either.. good old boring PA.

Ash · #12 April 18th, 2009, 01:59 PM

Jackie I am so sorry! My heart is breaking for you! I am probably right behind you in the break down department, although I have about 10 more days until that happens. We love you girl and are here for you!!

~*Jackie*~ · #13 April 18th, 2009, 06:42 PM

Thanks, Ash. It's a shame so many of us have to endure this crap. It's just crazy- the last few months I've been a lot less stressed about this all and just tried to relax. Even after finding out about that darn tube being blocked... but now I'm just beyond frustrated. I guess my next real step will be the lap, which I guess won't be done until my June cycle since my appt. isn't until the 27th of May.

hearts.0nfire · #14 April 18th, 2009, 07:08 PM

i'm sorry Jackie

KDD · #15 April 18th, 2009, 07:43 PM

I'm sorry Jackie. Whining is definitely allowed! We're all here to listen.

~*Jackie*~ · #16 April 19th, 2009, 08:47 AM

Thanks, ladies!

My temp plummeted already this morning.

I'm very unhappy with that if it means AF could be coming earlier than Tuesday. I was actually going to hope and hope that it would wait to come a day late on Wednesday, because then I could get my b/w and u/s done on Saturday morning rather than missing work. My body never ceases to amaze me (in a bad way!)

**Jenn** · #17 April 19th, 2009, 09:57 AM

I'm so sorry!

Generally our bodies are amazing things but they can be so freaking frustrating! Just when you think you might have things figured out your body throws you another curve ball. I hope you don't have to miss too much work and are able to get away for just a bit! Big *HUGS* to you!

~Lynda~ · #18 April 20th, 2009, 08:44 AM

oh hun, i'm so sorry!!!! i just want to pop through the screen and give you a big hug!!! i could use one too!!!!! HUGS <------- big big ones and whine anytime you need to. i'm in a whiny mood today too!!! HUGS again