[yarngirl]

So, I just need to talk. I had my first BFP dream last night. I woke up and all day I've been messing with my own head. It was such a realistic dream, I felt so excited and happy. Ugg. TTC really messes with your head.

I'm also really freaked out to start my progesterone this cycle. I'm supposed to take it on the 3rd day after my first positive OPK, which would be today. But, I'm not a 100% I ovulated. If I put in a high temp tomorrow, FF gives me crosshairs, but I had some CM today and I have weird cramping and pulling, which perhaps is O pain. I think I might wait and see what my temp is like tomorrow. I'm also kind of concerned because I had that one weird cycle in January where I didn't O until day 28, even though FF gave me crosshairs much earlier at first. I keep thinking in my head "you didn't O!" and I'm scared that the progesterone will mess me up.

Also, because the progesterone only got me to a 9 day LP, I am on a much stronger dose this month and I'm super freaked out. I have horrible side effects and I'm scared I won't function on it this cycle.

Sorry to just dump. I'm having such a confusing day.